The ups and downs

Forgive me?

*pov of Oliver*
I'm such an asshole. That's all that's been going through my head lately. Well since New Years. I guess I'm still the old me. I got to school and went to chorus and saw Daisy looking sad. I saw someone new in my seat I later learned him to be Jason, a new kid Daisy was showing around.

It was lunch time and I sat with my usual people but Daisy was no where in sight. I asked Mel, "have you seen Daisy?" She just looked angry at me," hmm check your bedroom, oh wait some whore is in there already I forgot." My jaw dropped, she knew, that means. Oh no.

School ended and I ran to my car and started to drive to Daisy's house. This can't be real, she's going to leave me. I'm a piece of shit. I started to get an anxiety attack and nearly hit a kid crossing the street. I need to get it together, maybe she doesn't know. I didn't see her at my party so she probably didn't see anything.

I got to her house and waited on her doorstep for her. Around 10 minutes later she saw me sitting there. I could almost hear the grunt she made," I have work, I don't have time for this. Move" "no, I'm not moving. Look I'm sorry. I was drunk and stupid and honestly I accept if you don't forgive me. I'm a worthless piece of shit who doesn't deserve you. But I'm so in love with you I can't stay away. But please, I can't live a life without you." I felt tears begin to fall down my face.

"I lied. I had no work, I just don't want to be near you. Come in." That was a roller coaster of a sentence. I stepping in and was hit with the smell of vanilla and coffee, I wiped away my tears and sat on the bar stool.

"So, why the fuck did you do it? Also I meant the girl you slept with she was actually nice to me and pitied me, I hated it." I raised my eyebrow, " how did she get your number?" "How did she know I was raped?" I closed my mouth and stared at my feet.

"Answer the fucking question Oliver, why the fuck did you fucking fuck that bitch?!" She demanded at me," I-I don't know. It kinda all happened so fast. It was the biggest mistake of my life. I was drunk and not myself, i don't know I regret it so much. You have got to believe me." She stood there and analyzing me and my words.

"You could of oh I don't know just not kissed her in the first place or not fucked her, that's like the easiest thing to do honestly." She gave me a petty smile. "Like I said I don't know what came over me, I was kinda y'know." She scoffed ," so you being horny makes this okay?" "No i wa-" she interrupted me." No you just, ugh. How could you do that to me? I'm sorry I was raped let's not forget who played dead and allowed it to happen." She instantly stopped and turned red.

"I'm-I'm sorry you aren't the reason it happened. I'm just-" I cut her off," no you're right I should of stopped him, I shouldn't of let him do that to you." "No Oliver don't be silly, that son of a bitch shot you. If I'd been in your place, well I can't lie I'd die protecting you from that." She kinda stood there making the awkwardness rise.

"I'm an asshole, not much of a surprise here. I should of protects you. I know you are alone here and things do happen, I shouldn't of let you walk home alone that night. I shouldn't of slept with that bitch. I shouldn't of done most of the stuff I've done in my life. But I do and I don't know why. I guess I'm just fucked up. And I don't deserve love, or anything. I deserve to die, that's about it." I shakily stood up and walked to the door. "I'm sorry, but please forgive me." I opened it and walked out.

*pov of Daisy*
My brain lingered on the word death. Then the dream we had. This is my moral test, it must be forgive him and he lives, or he...no he wouldn't, right? I wasn't about to find out.

I sprinted out the door and tackled him into a bank of snow. "Don't go. Please." I turned him around so he was on his back. I saw him crying, I held myself together so I wouldn't cry. It started to snow and I was only wearing the dress but I didn't care.

"I forgive you Oli. I do. But, just please, don't do it. I don't think I can handle something like that happening to me again. I don't have anyone in my life who I'm truly close to. I don't want to lose the person who matters most to me." I felt tears force themselves out, Oli reached out and wiped them away.

"Don't cry love, you're too beautiful to cry." He gave me a small smile. "Thank you for forgiving me. I don't know what I would of done without you, honestly." I stood up and helped him up," you should join the football team." We both laughed.

"Sorry I tackled you, I just-" I shook my head "never mind." He looked up while changing," what?" I looked at the ground," nothing really." He walked over in his boxers and lifted my chin up," you can tell me anything." I nodded and looked back at the ground.

"The dream we had a while ago, this whole thing kinda reminded me of that. Minus the child of course. But yeah. I didn't want to live with the fact I never forgave you and you did something to yourself that was irreversible, y'know? I care about you too much, that's why anytime you hurt me I take it so hard." I quickly wiped away the tear that appeared on my cheek.

Oliver stood there in silence," you forgave me because you didn't want me to kill myself? That's the only reason?" I looked up and saw him naked and quickly looked back down," no no that's not the only reason. I would of forgiven you either way. I love you Oli." He walked over to me again.

He took my face in his hands," you still love me? Even though I've been the absolute worst person in the world?" I smiled "yeah, I've loved you since well honestly a while now. Sometimes I'm shocked at how fast I fell for you." He kissed me lightly," I fell for you the day I met you flower girl." He kissed me again and I smiled through the kiss.

Soon things began to get intense, next thing I knew I was on my bed with Oliver over me. "Oli wait, I-i don't know if I'm ready to do this yet. Yes I was raped but I wasn't conscious or ready for that either. I'm sorry to be a buzzkill here I just." He laughed a bit," okay flower girl, I like a girl who I have to chase. But can you uh leave me in the bedroom for like 10 minutes?"

I turned my head, "what do you mean?" Then it hit me," I mean I said sex was off limits right now, I'm open to some other stuff." He smirked and pinned me against the wall and left a trail a kissed down my neck.