The ups and downs

You're what? With me?

*pov of Daisy*
I looked at Tyler unsure of what to say exactly. "I'm sorry I think I misheard you, what did you say Tyler?" He looked at me dead and the eyes and repeated the phrase," I'm in love with you Daisy."

I could feel my eyes widen," oh hahaha." He must be joking with me right? Almost as if he read my mind he responded," I'm not kidding, I love you. Every time I'm around you I get so happy and I want to be with you, forever. I'd never cheat on you like Oliver and I'd never allow anything bad to happen to you like Oliver."

I didn't know what to say. "Daisy please respond." I didn't want to hurt him," Tyler I love you too, but not in the way you want. I'm sorry I want us to keep what we have going on now though. I don't want to not know you." He looked sad then," it's fine I'm stupid for thinking you'd ever like me. I'm a freak, and you're too good for me. I-" he choked up a bit," i gotta go. Thanks for everything." I saw him wipe away a tear and walk away. Fuck I hate making people sad.

I ran after him after a minute, just to collect myself. "Tyler wait!" He turned around with tears flowing down him face." Why do you stay with him? He hurts you time and time again, yet you say you love him! He doesn't deserve you, given I don't either. But I'd treat you like a princess and I'd always be there for you. Not just when it's useful for me. I wouldn't leave you in your house alone, i would be with you whenever you needed me. And if you wanted space I'd give you space. But know this, he'll never treat you the way you deserve to be treated." His words hit like soft daggers.

A tear ran down my cheek, I was quick to wipe it away," bu-but I like him. And I like you, I love you, just not in a way you want. I know I sound repetitive. It's just I love you in a special way that's more important than a relationship. I know he's done some bad things but you know me, I believe in second chances. Right now I'm with him, but who knows the future? I want you to be with someone who makes you happy. And I don't want to end our friendship but if you don't want to be friends that's okay, I can accept that. But please don't, I don't want to know a world without you Ty."

He frowned," I don't think I can be just friends with you for much longer Daisy. I'm sorry, please understand seeing you with someone who you shouldn't be with hurts. So forgive me but I don't think we can be friends anymore." He wiped away tears and hopped in who I'm assuming is a friend's car and drive away.

I don't know what to do, he had quickly become my best friend. Now he's gone, who else will leave me? I guess being associated with me is toxic, people always leave. I know it's me now it was never them. People cheat on me, abandon me, then when they pour their emotions to me; they leave me too. I decided I couldn't be around anyone anymore. I needed to leave.

I got home by taking an uber. I went straight to my mom's room and opened the small wooden cupboard in her room, inside was alcohol. I grabbed an untouched bottle of vodka and a glass. I sat at my kitchen table and cracked the bottle, pouring myself a glass.

It was a sweet burn down my throat. I got a text from Oli, hey hottie where are you O.o I chucked my phone at the wall and screamed. It shattered like my heart. I just decided that I don't deserve to be near people, no one truly cares. Tyler did, I smiled he always did. That's  why he was my best friend. Oli cared when it was useful for him. I shook my head and drank some more toxic liquid.

Half a bottle later all the pain had numbed, this is defiantly better than self harming or anything. This I can actually forget with, well at least for a while.

I smiled and started to dance around my house to Three Days Grace- Animal I Have Become. I can't escape this hell, so many times I've tried! Somebody get me through this nightmare! I slurred along to the music and forgot all my problems.

I woke up on my kitchen counter with a massive headache. How the fuck did I get up here? I shook my head and grabbed some aspirin, I decided to take 4 cuz why not. Who cares anymore. I'm not trying to kill myself but who cares if I died? I chuckled and swallows the pills down with some leftover vodka.

Soon I got ready for work and made sure to spray extra perfume and chew mint gum. Then I hopped off my bike and off I went.

My shift was coming to an end when he came. Tyler. I basically sprinted to seat him, with him was a girl who I recognized from my accounting class. Well our accounting class. I smiled at them," hello. Table for two?" Tyler looked at me and gave a small nod.

I sat them and got them drinks. I cleaned up the tables as they sat and talked, Tyler looked miserable.

Soon it was time to close," hey you two I'm sorry but it's 5 minutes passed closing time." The girl looked nervous," oh my! I'm so sorry! We will be leaving, here's the money for our stuff." She smiled and dragged an upset Tyler with her.

I noticed they gave me a one cent tip, guess Tyler isn't a big fan of me anymore. Tonight was a pretty crappy night, even before Tyler came in.

I walked home but decided not to go home. I walked to the park and sat down on a bench. I looked up at the stars, they are so perfect.

I fell asleep and was awoken by footsteps and a figure coming towards me. Yes please come kill me or something. They figure stopped and looked down at me, I couldn't see who it was; they had on a hoodie.

"Can I help you person?" The figure grabbed me and I remained limp," I'm not a prostitute, or I guess they are called escorts." The figure didn't say a word, but gently let go of me. "Thank you, I guess you are a sign I should go home." I stood up and just walked away. I guess not caring about life means you don't care if you live or die. I didn't even bother looking behind my shoulder.

I got home and took a quick shower, there were bruises forming from where the figure grabbed me. I shrugged it off and went to bed.