The ups and downs

I havent been honest with you

*pov of Daisy*
He pulled away as the ride resumed. I didn't know how to respond," okay then, that was....something." He was still looking at me," I'm sorry, it's just, well to put it lightly. I like you, a lot. And I don't know, sometimes I can't control my emotions." I nod at him," oh that's fine." We remained silent as the ride came to an end.

Then as a joke Lee wanted everyone to go on the tunnel of love, great. "Uh Lee, why do you want to go on this?" He looked at me dead in the eyes and said," I love love, love." I furrowed my eyebrows," great."

Everyone paired up and I was stuck with Oliver, great make me more confused than I already am. He's like ten years older than me, I turned nineteen last week. So I mean I don't know, why would he like me?

"Yay I get to go with my love on the tunnel of love." Oliver whispered to me, dear God. I smiled. We sat down and off we went. He put his arm around me," are you cold? You can have my sweatshirt back." I was shivering again," it's fine." He basically put he sweatshirt on me, it smells amazing. Stop. Being. Weird. Daisy.

"I haven't been honest with you Daisy, I basically fell in love with you when I first saw you." What. "And I understand if you don't feel the same but give me a chance, please." I felt guilt, obviously I'd want to date him but what about Oli. Back home Oli. We are basically broken up, he's probably moved on at this point. I don't know I'm not necessarily a happy person either, I don't want Oliver to have to deal with that.

I felt my mouth say, "okay. Why not?" He smiled like a little kid and kissed me again.

Soon the ride was over and the guys were waiting by a food cart for us. "Hey Daisy get over here! They have candy floss!" Matt K yelled. "You mean cotton candy dear." I said laughing a bit. "Same thing. Here have some."

Soon we were on the way to the next city. I wish I had my phone, I'm an idiot for breaking it. I just feel guilty not officially ending things with Oli. My thoughts were interrupted but Oliver, "hey you can sleep in my bed, the couch doesn't seem very comfortable." He had a little smirk on his face," sure. I feel like an old lady complaining about my back anyway." We giggled and went to his bunk.

I woke up at 2 am from a horrible dream. I've been getting them a lot lately, but this one felt so real. Oli found me and called me a whore and a bunch of other horrid things. Then everyone called me them, then I lost my job and just nothing I want to remember.

I saw Oliver's arm was around me, I smiled a bit. I slowly moved from his grip to not wake him up. I went back to the couch, I can't do anything until I break up with Oli. I asked the bus driver to borrow his phone. He said yes.

I dialed Oli's number and started shaking. After three rings he answered," who the fuck is this?" "H-hey Oliver. It's Daisy." His voice changed," D-Daisy? You basically fell off the planet! You can't do that to a person! That was such a bitchy thing to do! I was fucking worried about you!" I shook my head and smiled a bit, he hates me. This is somewhat a good thing. "Oliver, I'm sorry. But let's remember I was acting weird and distant a month or so before I left. None of our friends, well your friends now. Or even you really cared. You seemed thankful, I'm not trying to be dramatic or anything. And I wasn't before. It's just I needed to leave that place."

"You left me, you can't get mad at me for what I'm about to say-" "Oliver I'm happy you moved on." "What? But what? Shouldn't you be like I'm your girlfriend and that kinda stuff?" "Well I mean it was kinda clear we broke up, we broke up at prom night in my eyes. That was the last time I was happy. But I'm not going to get into it. I want you to be happy." I could feel him smiling into the phone," thanks. I want you to be happy too. We can keep in touch if you want to." I paused," sure, it's just I kinda threw my phone at a wall prom night so it may be hard." "What happened?"

"Nothing important, well important to you. Don't worry about it. I'm happy you are doing well. Who is the lucky girl Oliver? Sorry if that's weird, I just can't sleep so I wanna talk." " Well I ended up with Mary. She's really nice, I didn't really give her a chance at first. But then I realized she's wonderful. I like her a lot. She's helped me through some stuff. Like you did, I guess my type is nice girls now." "That's good Oliver. Really good, Mary was always so kind."

"Yeah, she reminds me of you a bit. That's probably why I ended up with her. But the only difference with her is she actually lets me sleep with her, like y'know fuck her. Haha. You never did, even though some asshole did. But whatever that was the past." I didn't know what to say. "I can't believe you didn't sleep with me. Like it's your fault you lost your virginity to that guy. I mean maybe it was the universe saying fuck you. I mean you said you loved me, so why not sleep with me? We were both older, and honestly I feel like you thought you were too good for me. I never really loved you, I just wanted to fuck you. Nothing else, it was kinda a bet I had with the guys going on. I got with you but couldn't get in your pants. So I lost. But you are so gullible, you think a guy would actually want to date you? Ha, silly girl." "What the fuck Oliver?" "Oh come on you had to of caught on." I hung up, I couldn't take it anymore.

The first person I loved, it was all a lie. "Fuck!" I screamed. I should of dumped him earlier on, Tyler was right. I started balling. He was right but I was too blind by a fake love to see. No one would want to date me, Oli was right. He is right. But, no. All I wanted right now was a good friend, Tyler. I smiled at some memories with him. I'm so stupid.

I ended up crying myself to sleep that night.