BOUND TO MY NEMESIS

4 - DEVIL I KNOW

He had the smile of an angel and the mind of a devil, and I should have known better. But he planted flowers in my heart and made hell feel like home. #nicolelyons #hush

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He suddenly frowned, then I realised I had been smiling in return revealing my white uneven teeth, I closed my mouth with my lips still tugged up.

I slowly placed my hands in his, his larger ones enveloping my small ones, their callousness surprised me but I didn't know the man enough. We walked hand in hand all smiles as the cameras ate us up, to the world we looked like an amazing couple who couldn't wait to start their life together and that's what I so much want in reality, for him to be totally in love with me because I know for a fact it just has to take a little effort from him to have me falling and wallowing in his love, I adored him even with his indifferent treatment towards me, it later developed into crush as I grew older and learnt we weren't related by blood, I stuck to him like a body tag even when all he did was push me away, as I kid I never understood why he hated, I don't know why he still does. But when puberty hit me and I found out he was my betrothed the adoration manifested into a different thing though I can't pin what it is, I don't think its strong enough to be love but it might surely bloom to that or metamorphose into something worse.

Growing up, I've had love and I readily gave love I still do give love even to the undeserving but I had a limit, likewise, I rarely get angry but when I do let's just say whoever is to face my wrath won't like it. He is that one person my heart continuously forgive, it might be because he is family but I really did hope this marriage bridges the gap between us.

The event passed by in a blur before, I was marvelled at how he laughed and hugged me, it was quite embarrassing he'd peck me every few minute and there were absolutely no snide remarks, I wondered if the same Dan I'd known all my life was the one before me maybe he changed his mind, I smiled through the event and I couldn't even tell if it was from sheer happiness, uncertainty or fear. What I feel within me is indescribable just like what Dan was doing, maybe just maybe he'd realise how irrelevant fighting this was, I made a promise to myself then, come what may I would never give up on this marriage.

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I held the cake to his mouth after we had cut it looking deep into his eyes, I couldn't tell what was going through his mind he ate it all in bite one bite licking my fingers, my face flushed with heat, 'what was he doing?' the crowd hollered and I wished I could vanish, my aunties were there and Mufeedah will never let me hear the end of it. I bowed my head when he held a sliced cake to my lips.

Mufeedah nudged me from behind and I raised my head up, I shyly opened my mouth and bit a small portion of it, then chewed it slowly while looking into his eyes. For a moment I thought I saw anger in his eyes his jaw clenched but he was all smiles in a minute, were my eyes deceiving me how on earth could I think this hatred will be no more in the span of a day.

I could hear the far murmur of the crowd, and the "awws" when the MC announced I was a shy bride , I bowed my head hiding the tears that had welled in my eyes. "Ya Allah make this journey an easy one for me" I silently prayed in my heart the place MUQALIBUL QULUB (Turner of hearts) owned and knew their depth more than the possessor. I felt a hand under my chin and looked up. His eyes searched mine and I just stared back blankly my mind was numb what was he up to I wondered was he looking to see if I was joyous or what. His face descended ever so slowly as his lips possessed mine my mouth opened in surprise, his lips left mine just as they had possessed them.

I heard a sound and turned to Mufeedah's goofy smile Fareeda's mouth was wide agape, I couldn't muster the courage to look at the rest of them, oh Allah Auntie Kamila was here the room was up roared with clap and whistles, why does this keep happening Ya Rabb. For this time only I wish adacadabra would work so I can vanish from here along with everyone's memory of the event.