BOUND TO MY NEMESIS

18 ~ Nightmarish Reality

I heard the door slam shut, my heart ached, I could feel my soul sob maybe happiness wasn't for me. The one person who is suppose to love me unconditionally despises me so I in no way blame Dan for his actions, who wouldn't be angry when his siblings were killed in an accident I caused, I killed my mom too, the woman was pregnant and I killed her.

I sobbed but tears refused to flow my head felt like the weight of the world had been dropped on it, my vision became blurry and slowly the world blurred away.

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Everywhere was dark my heart pounded with each step I took, I knew what I was doing wasn't right but I couldn't hold back, I looked around the house once more all the lights were cut off but the moon light illuminated the room enough. I turned to the wall that had huge picture frames hanged on them but could still not see the faces of the ones in.

Another scream screeched echoing throughout the house, I was scared to go up, I climbed the first step careless of what danger awaited me, someone needed help and I was going to offer it.

I half run half tiptoed to the top of the stairs, there were too many doors I couldn't tell which one to enter I turned the knob of the first door but it didn't budge I continued with the other doors till I reached the last one, a scream resonated I turned around my heart in my mouth as I looked down the long hallway behind me, I felt a hot liquid on my hand then another one on my back i was afraid to look up my heart felt like it was going to fall off my chest. The cry of a baby resounded through the house I screamed and it echoed through the house, what was happening I closed my eyes and opened it but it was still the same, the clank of a shoe resounded the sound nearing me but no one was in sight.

A feminine laughter filled the room "You are a witch" Amdan's voice whispered close to my ear, "Was this necessary?" I asked in a shaky voice, another laughter resounded through the room echoing for minutes. The droplets were now fervent my cloth sticking to my body I looked down and my dress was crimson red.

A scream escaped my lips, the laughter and baby cry amplified I was covered in blood and it won't stop raining. I clamped my mouth to avoid the blood from getting into my mouth the room turned darker.

"You killed us" different voices sang in unison "you're a murderer, you're a murderer" they sang repeatedly. I wanted to hit something so the voices would stop.

I opened my eyes and the room was filled with light, I was scared to look around the voices suddenly stopped.

"Hurry up Salma we are running late don't you want to go?" I looked around to find the voice that was talking to me but there was no one in the room.

I have only seen him once but I knew he was the one, "Salma" he exclaimed running to me he hugged me, I couldn't wrap my hand around him, he pulled away and pushed me "You killed them it was all you" I stood still surprised and frightened, "You did it, you did it" they sang as they approached me, two boys and a toddler.

I turned around to run but my legs wouldn't move, I fell heavily on my legs like I had been pushed by a force, their voices stopped and there was no one in the room, in my peripheral vision I could see an approaching figure I raised my head and it was a lady in a long white flowy dress, she looked very pretty her lips tugged with the most beautiful smile.

I saw her much clearer as she neared me, her right arm perched akimbo on the small of her back.

She was wagging at a slow pace and her bulgy tummy was evident, a pregnant woman I mused my brows creased as I studied her.

I heard the honk of a car and turned around but there was no one there, a little girl appeared, I hadn't seen her approaching, she pushed the woman in front of a speeding car.

It hit her pushing her into a ditch, I rushed there but I was too slow nothing showed the woman had been there just a while ago.

"You did it" I turned sharply but there was no one where I had heard the accusing voice "You killed her" I raised my head and the little girl who had pushed her was standing her chest heaving "You killed her" she muttered in a chilled voice that didn't sound like a child's, "You did it" I retorted "You made me do it" she fired back "remember" she added.

I blinked my eyes rapidly my brows creasing as the event that happened recently replayed in my mind, I looked up and the girl was replaced with my replica, "you killed her she was your mom" "No I didn't do it I wasn't the one you did it" I retorted "You killed your mother" I was familiar to the voices that were accusing me but I was afraid to look "You did it!" they started singing in unison I raised my head and Mufeeda, Fareeda, Dada, Mom, Papa and Amdan surrounded me pointing accusatory fingers at me.

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We were sitting downstairs looking through pictures from the family's photo album Amdan's hand circling my waist as we laughed at old memories.

We paused at a picture of mom and dad, teasing dad's clothes, he was in an oversized trouser with a white long sleeved shirt his hair in a thick afro, mom's clothes weren't any better she was seated so I couldn't tell if what she was wearing was skirt and blouse or straight dress. The blouse was quite transparent but her undergarment hid everything leaving just a small skin of her fair skin on display her hair was wavy maybe a style her hairdresser pulled off for her after perming it, the was looking up to dad like he held the key to her universe and he was looking down at her in admiration.

My hands lingered on the pic, "When will you look at me like that?" I asked my lips wide in a goofy smile.

He turned his lips tugged in a smile but it was quickly replaced with a frown his lips turned down in a frown, "You think I've forgotten?" I blinked in confusion my lip partially open to ask him what he meant, the room turned dark filled with pictures of the woman I had seen earlier she appeared her white dress soaked in blood she held a foetus in her hand as she approached me, her lips opened but I couldn't make out what she was saying.

I closed my eyes banging my head on the wall, it hurt but the pain felt better than the haunting look in her eyes, I felt the wetness on my face but I was scared to open my eyes, open it to the reality of the disaster I really was.

I strike nothing but reality and even the death I so much wish to take me away felt disgusted by me.

Slowly I gave in to the darkness that took me in.

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"Inna lillahi wa inna ilaihi raji'un"(to Allah we belong and him we shall return *often said when calamity/tragedy strikes*) I heard faintly from afar, my eyes felt like they were glued together, my head throbbed and I could feel it in my eyes, I felt my body being lifted, my body felt sore everywhere ached.

My senses battled for consciousness my body wasn't ready to give, though I felt pain all over I hated the state I was in, I heard a feint groan, pain shot through my body, I felt like I was being thrown up and down like a ragdoll.

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"How could you let this happen Amdan just look at her or have you turned into an abuser?" I heard mom's irritated voice, the reply the was hushed so I didn't hear anything everything went blank again.

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My eyes felt heavy it felt like heavy boulders were placed on them, a low groan permeated through the room my vision was blurry but I could make out the words on the red book the person sitting on the stool beside me was holding "fortress of the believer" it read.

I groaned again looking down at the needle injected into my vein, the person shot up, "You're awake" mom muttered in surprise I tried to smile but it hurt emanating a groan from me. "Let me go call the doctor" she blurted rushing out of the room.

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