18.09.17
23:02
I know in here I have gone back and forth between wanting to feel, to feeling too much or not at all. This is usually based on my mood, which is where feelings come from. If I am happy I want to feel everything. The sun on my skin, the wind in my hair, the grass against my feet, everything. If I am sad I wish to feel nothing, emptiness. I want to fall into the abyss. But, after experiencing them all in one rollercoaster ride of emotions, the fuck it mentality has emerged and I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world.
I am grateful, I am lucky and I am blessed to feel in such extremes. Yes, that does mean the little things can hurt so much. But, it also means that they can make you feel so happy, like you're on top of the world, invincible.
I have a newfound appreciation for my ability to empathise because I know and have seen those without it. To be open, to feel what everyone else feels is a blessing. Yes, it has its curse moments because it is painfully draining, as you forget to feel for yourself. But, as I said before, I wouldn't trade it for anything in the world. And that is because those who feel in extremes are the ones who know how much the little things can be a pleasure, as well as how much pain they can cause, so they would never do it to another.
To feel is to be powerful.
21.09.17
00:03
"i am living and i am learning that the key to achieving happiness is to let go.
let go of the negativity.
let go of the toxicity.
whether this is a person, a habit or a place.
let it go,
and then you will truly start to feel at peace.
it will be hard,
it will take time.
but,
it will be worth it." - we will find peace, i am still learning and so are you, but peace is ours.
00:45
"the day i stop being annoying is the day i stop caring." - change.
12:03
"to go without a painted face
is so...
liberating." - i am free of the mask that you made me wear.
12:18
"to hate is to let them win,
to love is to let you win." - happiness kills hate.
23:10
"she had a fire in her soul,
and he reduced it to ashes in an instant.
but,
like a phoenix she was reborn,
and she rose, burning brighter than ever before." - her spirit was unbreakable.
23:15
"you leave me in a constant state of indifference." - conflicted (you).
23:17
"what do you want from me?
what do you stand to gain from this?
why do you act like you need me?
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Maisie's Diary
Poetryit's as simple as the title. i'm maisie these are my thoughts and feelings, a lot of feelings. a window in my soul and the key to my heart. it's yours once you turn to the first page.
