Never Been Hurt (Dan Howell x Reader)

54: Welcome To The World

"Y/n you gotta push honey," Dr. Cooper tells me. My eyes start to burn from heartbreak. "Come on Y/n Nurse Jane will take great care of him," Nurse Charlotte tells me calmly. "My baby..." I whimper. I want to crumble right now. I just want to know if my baby is okay!

"Please Y/n you still have another baby to look out for let's bring her into the world alright?" Dr. Cooper says. What does she mean by that? She makes it sound like he's gone... I thought she said everything was okay! Is my baby boy okay? I need I know. I want to know! I nod not knowing what else to do.

I start to push again feeling this baby making their way out fairly quicker than Dan and I's baby boy. I yell out in pain. My teeth clenched and my eyes squeezed shut. I could feel my opening open again. It stung as my baby girl made her way into the world. Before I knew it our baby girl was sliding out. She was laid on me and she cried. I shushed her and stroked her head as I cried. Dan put his head on mine. "You did great baby," Dan tells me sniffling. Dan seemed as if he was holding back. He was holding back for the sake of being strong for me because I am weak right now.

He's most likely just as worried as I am right now. Our baby boy has been taken and we don't know what's going on because they won't tell us. They put a small towel over us mostly her. I shook her gently. Calming down she opened her eyes looking at me. "Hi baby," I whisper bringing my now free hand up to meet hers. She just stares at me with brown eyes like Dan's. More I tried to get my mind off of our boy the more it effected me. I hugged her lightly afraid to hurt her tiny body. "She has your nose Y/n," Lynn said trying lighten the situation.  I feel Dr. Cooper slide the placenta out, which is an uncomfortable feeling. Dr. Cooper gets up after wiping off some of the blood.

"Let me go clean her up a bit we'll be right back," Nurse Charlotte says taking our baby girl with her. The moment she's not in my arms I feel myself fall apart. My tears spill, streaming from my eyes. My eyes become heavy as they become puffy. Dan and Lynn who are doing the same hug me. My shoulders shake. What could've happened? Is my baby boy gone? What did I do?

"W-hat d-did I do?" I sob. "It's not your fault Y/n/n! {You're nickname} you did all what you were suppose to." Lynn says.

I think back to what could've happen. I had been fine until... Eric... Is it because of him I don't have my baby boy in my arms. "I want him thrown in jail!" I shout angrily. "Who?" Dan ask. "Eric- uh D-danny! I was perfectly f-fine until he bothered m-me today!" I sob. I grab onto Dan's arm and put my face in it. "They'll g-get him babe," Dan tells me sobbing. "I just want our boy to be okay..." His voice sounded broken.

I failed... I failed as a mother. I should've done everything I could to protect them! I shouldn't have even walked out of that bathroom! Stupid! I'm so fucking stupid! I breathe trying to calm myself down. My body shook as I tried to balance myself.

I looked down at my now deflated stomach. It seemed like everything was okay while you were in there. Dr. Cooper cleans up the messy place underneath.

"Honey we're gonna love you to a different room okay?" Dr. Cooper says bringing in a wheel chair. I nod. Dan helps me out of the bed and Dr. Cooper moves me to a more comfortable room. I'm helped into the bed and I bring my legs up to my chest. I put my head down and start to sob.

"Is our baby boy okay?" I hear Dan say. "I don't know..." Dr. Cooper tells us just shattering our hearts more. "Please find out," Lynn says her voice sounded defeated. I feel a dip in the bed and long arms wrap around me. I smell Dan's cologne. I crumble in his arms and grip at his shirt as I cry into it. My stomach was endless. My throat hurts. I feel a dip on the other side of me, feeling Lynn lay on me. She was crying as well.

There's a knock on the door. Lynn sat up and said come in.

Nurse Charolette comes in wheeling a bassinet. The baby has a pink hospital hat on now. I wipe my tears. "Would you like to hold her?" She ask Dan. He nods with a sad smile. She picks her up and puts her in Dan's arms. More tears fall out of Dan's eyes. Perfect mixture of Dan and I.

"So tiny.." He says barely over a whisper.

The door opens again another bassinet coming in. I see a blue hat. I sit up in bed my eyes going wide. "He's okay?" I ask wonder filling my eyes.
"He's healthy," She smiles. "I wanna hold him," I tell her more years falling from my eyes. She picks him up and puts him in my arms. He was awake. He's alive, he's moving! I looked up at Lynn and Dan to see them smiling as well. Tears in their eyes.

I hug him gingerly, sobbing. "I thought he was gone..." I kiss his head. I look at our baby boy. "He almost was but I couldn't give up. I got his heart going again. Then we finally got that cry," Nurse Jane tells me. "Thank you so much," I tell her. More tears fall from my eyes this time of joy.

"Have you guys discussed names yet?" Jane asked.
"We've discussed a few," I tell her sniffling. "Ooh what names?"
"Echo for our girl Eli for our boy or London and Ryland."
"London and Ryland sounds really cute!" She comments. "I thought so too, but someone is being difficult," I look at Dan.
"Eli is a nice name!" He chuckles.
"Well if anything I think you should defiantly go for London," she winks.

"How about we split it then?" Dan says. "What do you mean?"
"London for our girl and Eli for our boy."
"Alright fine," I smile.
"Welcome to the world Eli and London," Lynn smiles. I grab Eli's hand picking it up with my thump and index finger. His tiny fingers clamp around my finger.

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Dan has climbed in with me. Lynn was sitting in the chair. Both babies were in our arms.

I put my head on his shoulder. "We are so not having anymore for a long time," I chuckle. "You know I really thought you were going to break my hand," Dan chuckles. "It hurt so bad. I don't think I can even describe the pain," I say. "I'm sorry baby." He kisses my cheek. "We got the greatest thing out of it though I can say." I say smiling.
"I love you Y/n."
"I love you too Daniel," I smile looking Dan in his chocolate brown eyes. I start to lean in, he leans in following my lead. His soft lips touch my own. Our lips move slowly in sync. We hear the sound of a picture being taken. Our kiss breaks and we look back at Lynn.

"This is a very cute moment! I'll send you the picture," She smiles.
We hear a knock on the door. In order to keep us from yelling Lynn walks over to the door and opens it. Alex and Brian walks in.
Alex's eyes widened when he sees the twins. "Look at their tiny cute faces!" He whispers smiling.
"What's their names?"
"London and Eli," I smile.

"Can I hold one?" He ask. "Wanna hold London?" Dan ask. "Sure!" Alex smiles. He comes over to us and Dan passes London to him. "She's so cute, so wittle," He coos.

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Sorry it's late I've been busy with school and homecoming. See I'm a nice author! ....sometimes! Do you still love me??? 😂 I love you my Kittens!