Journey Into My Mind

They Never Sing Along

I don't even know where I'm heading
Feels like everyday is wasted, all of these thoughts got me stressing
My mind is a prison always coping with depression
And everyone I ever loved only showed aggression
I hate that I despise looking at my own reflection
I hate that I'm too scared to tell her all of these confessions
Really I need to get to venting, and I'm not just pretending
Every single day I'm getting older
I've lost so many friends, but never getting any closure

Every single breath I take is another one closer,
to the last I'm gonna get, got me feeling so much colder
I just hate to be alive, I've contemplated suicide
so many times and honestly I don't even know why
My parents say music is not going to pay the bills
But the music is the only thing I have left let's keep it real
All of these demons in my past it's just another fucking pill
Zoloft, to xanax, and prozac, they don't heal
You just want to see me numb, you don't really want to help
They just tell me take one a day from the bottom of the shelf
Screw that I'd rather feel pain than nothing
I hide my pain with a smile so they don't make up assumptions
They don't know that everyday I'm running from my problems
I don't really speak of it cuz everybody got some
Honestly my thoughts always bury me
Feel like I'm alone and nobody is really there for me
The thought of dying by myself is always scaring me
Another breakdown and it feels like there's no air to breathe

So tell me why my home doesn't feel like home
Tell me why I still love you, but you already moved on
Tell me why the only thing I have are these poems
Everyone says they understand, but they never sing along, forreal

I still miss you