Journey Into My Mind

feelings

They all want to see me numb
They all want to give me hell
Broke my heart just for laughs
I can't even trust myself

What even is love
When you're in a living hell
Who am I supposed to trust
When I can't even save myself

White lies, dark truths
I try to hide, but it's no use
Too depressed, not in the mood
So much stress and I feel used

Keep pushing on knowing that I'm weak
There's so much you don't know that I hold beneath
Try holding it in without yielding
Now I spend my entire life healing

Why couldn't I be born without feelings
Emotions are a detriment, they're not appealing
It's impossible to heal when these scars are too real
It's impossible to not feel what I feel

It's hard to pretend when your life is a mess
It's hard to forget when you're under tons of stress
If only someone could just lead me to the right direction
I would destroy myself to become your idea of perfection