Journey Into My Mind

random thought 💔

I honestly don't care about using the very thing that broke me to try and fix myself. You're just my favorite kind of poison and I'm addicted. I'm too hopeless for thinking you feel the same way about me. I guess I'm going to die while trying to find a hand to hold. And only you can help me, but I know you won't. You don't know what you put me through. You don't know how much pain you've caused me. You could've done something, but chose to watch me writhe in anguish. What hurts the most is not only knowing that you've broken someone's heart intentionally, but knowing that you've changed someone's perspective of what love is is even worse. And above all, knowing that same person you caused pain still loves you very much makes you feel profound guilt and regret. But nothing will change the fact that I still love you. It's breaks my heart to know what we could've been, but never happened. Goodbye... 💔