Journey Into My Mind

Would You Care?

Think about this for a minute. If I showed up on your doorstep in the rain crying, would you care? If I called you and asked you I needed someone to vent to, would you help? If I had one day left to live, would you be there until the very last moment? If I needed a hug or a shoulder to cry on, would you loan me yours? Because I'd do all of that for you. Life is so lonely without the one person I care about, but I'm better off if you truly despise me. I only have myself to blame. I'm a good person and deep down you know it. You know I tried hard to keep you no matter how many times you fucked me over and put me down. So tell me, are you really happy with the way things are now? It won't be long until you become depressed and lonely again or until he betrays you. And deep down you know I'm the most honest and loyal person out of every guy you've been with. And deep down I hope you know I never intended to hurt you no matter how much it seems like I did it on purpose. I won't apologize because you've had enough of those lies. I know you're feeling down again, but I don't expect you to open up to some trash like me. I just want you to know that if there's anything I could do, even if it's a little, I'll do it then I'll be on my way. I can't sleep right knowing that you're suffering as much as I am, perhaps more. So what if I'm hurting myself by caring so much. If it benefits you in any way then I'm fine being treated like trash. I guess I really am the one that cares about you the most. And I'm just a guy you met online. To think I'd go so far for an online person lol.

(If you're reading this, and you know who you are, all of this is on our convo in kik. I know you still have it)