A Trip Inside My Head

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The weather isn't bad, it's actually just perfect, the sky looks gray and cloudy, I think it might rain later, and this kind of reminds me of a song ; "Born To Die" by Lana Del Rey, I somehow have a song for each feeling and every mood.

I walked and I walked; I kept walking for hours until I felt super tired, it's exactly what I wanted anyway, at least I'll get to fall asleep once I get back home, well, if I ever get back home. But wait, where am I? It's getting dark around me and I can't call anyone, actually I don't have anyone...

10pm; I'm walking through some kind of a forest, how did I even get here!!? I must've got lost in my thoughts as usual, perhaps if I keep walking I'll find a place to stay, I can't go back home and I don't want to, my parents will be there and I can't handle another fight, they didn't even bother to call and ask about me, the last thing I remember them saying while I was walking away was: this is all your fault. Funny right?

I still got some respect for them after all and  that's why I walked away instead of saying something mischievous, I'm tired of letting go and having to step on my pride, I'm running out of patience too.
They're not the richest but Christopher Sanchez is a famous businessman who's married to the beautiful Italian Francesca Dil Pier, daughter of some mafia leader whatever who stood against her strict family to marry my loser father and they traveled around the world together blah blah blah old story I used to hear every night before I sleep.

Growing up as an only child wasn't that big of a deal, I was so popular back in the day all thanks to my parents' reputation of course, but it all started to change after my mother gave birth to that little brat Rose, it was my graduation day and I was so happy but no one came, no one even bothered to call or just text me as they were all busy congratulating my parents for the new child as if they discovered the cure for cancer, everything eventually changed and as the time passed I started to get totally ignored and left alone, I slyly did everything to get their attention, good and bad... I went from getting the highest grades to partying every night fucking my parents' closest friends, my father had to fire his assistant and all the maids we had because his cursed daughter might hunt anything with a cunt.

I got swallowed into the trees, I'm feeling cold and it's getting really late, I can't go anywhere, I'm just sitting here thinking of what went wrong and how did I get to this state, I'm crying for no reason perhaps for all reasons, but I'm not scared, maybe those tears were meant to fall earlier when my father was yelling at me and my mother took his side but I've got a big ego and I stopped myself from being weak in front of them, not everyone who cries is weak though but... I am weak, and it's because I can't stand against them and leave for good, I'm still depending on them and it kills me to just think about it, I usually take the decision of going away then I end up getting back to the same point, where could I even go? I mean look at me now, it's almost midnight and I'm lost in the woods somewhere, I don't have any future plans and obviously my present isn't that pleasing either.

I wiped off my tears and stood up, the only thing that was keeping me company was my phone that I used to listen to music and ignore the world but it just died like all my hopes and dreams, I'm really tired I think it's past midnight or so and I can't keep walking anymore I'm starting to feel dizzy too, I didn't eat since last night and it's been a while since I had a proper meal, my feet are failing me I can't carry myself and every step I take weakens me even more I can't see clearly what's in front of me, what am I even doing? Well, the proper question I should ask myself is; where am I going? I stumbled from a fairly high place falling on my head I immediately lost consciousness.

What is happening?

I- I can't move.