Ever After

Chapter 39: Undecided

I wake up the next morning with Jackson's body wrapped completely around me and his face buried deep into my neck. I laugh softly running my fingers through his hair. I bite my lip hearing him tiredly hum. His arms tighten around me. "Baby..." He whines tiredly and I melt humming gently. He lifts his head puckering his lips. A small prominent pout present and his eyes are lightly shut. I press my lips to his and even in his tired form he knows how to keep up.

He lets his fingertips slide along my lace panties. "Mmm well hello there." I giggle. "Are you talking to my underwear?" He smiles with his eyes still shut. "I don't know I'm tired." He says laying his head back on my shoulder. I laugh and he smiles widely. "I love your laugh." He says softly. I hum. "I love your sleepy state." He laughs. "Wish we could stay like this forever." I hum. "Me too but today is Sunday and the kids need you to spend some time with them." He groans. "Don't you like us time better?" I smile touching my nose to his. "We've had enough."

He hums. "Not unless your pregnant." I look wide eyed at him and his head snaps up with eyes as wide as mine. "Teagan I-I didn't mean...I um..." I swallow. "I-I have kids to check on." I say untangling him from me before shuffling to pull on pants. He sits up huffing reaching out for me. "Baby..." I step away smiling falsely before attempting to pull my hair up leaving quickly.

I peek in on the kids seeing they are asleep before heading down to sit on the couch with my knees in my chest as I pick at the sleeves of Jackson's shirt. "Baby listen to me hear me out please." I frown. "Jackie I..." I cover my face crying some. He sits next to me pulling me into him. "Love what is it?" I cling to him. "I can't...." I hold my stomach. "You'll just have to leave Jackie. What I've given should be enough..." He kisses me before planting small pecks all over my face. "It's enough. More than enough." I push him back some. "You said it for a reason Jackie."

He huffs. "I'd love another kid baby but when it comes to you. Every second your with me is more than enough." I shake my head. "If this is what you want I can't keep you from having it." I take the ring off my finger. "I love you. Go catch your dreams Jackie." I say getting up quickly running into the downstairs bathroom locking myself in before crying on the bathroom floor with my back to the door.

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I wake up on the bathroom floor glancing around. I look down at my now plain fingers wonder where Jackson is at the moment. If I open the door I'll most likely have to face the kids and they don't need to see me like this. I sigh softly sitting with my back to the door once more. I silently cry some more picking at my nails. I know Jackson would scold me but who's to say he's even here.

I get cup climbing the toilet to see out of the little window. His car is gone and I frown softly. I gasp. Who's watching the kids?! I get up swinging the door open rushing out of the door only to step on something sharp. I look down seeing my ring with a note. I pick it up.

Teagan you are my dreams. Every single on of them came true when I met you. I can't even begin to express it. I'm not leaving you ever. That's my promise to you. Even if you don't wear it ever again. The rings rightfully yours. I love you.

I sigh taking the ring and putting it in my pocket. I stand searching the house for kids but they are gone. I grab my phone dialing Jackson's number. "Hey!" He says. "Jackson where the hell are my kids?!" He sighs. "With me Teagan." I frown sitting on the bed. "You...they are coming back right?" He must have nodded because there was a long pause. "Yes love we'll be back in about half an hour tops." I sigh. "Okay."

He pauses. "Is there something you wanted to talk about?" I stutter and shake a little. "N-no. I-I have to go." I hang up and set my phone down on the table laying down in the bed crying some more before hugging his pillow tightly and dosing off once more. When I wake up the next time I feel someone tugging the pillow from me. I groan. "No..." I whine. They tug on it some more and I tug back. "Smells like Jackie." I mumble softly before drifting in and out of sleep. I remember rolling over and hitting something firm. I inhale deeply smiling before humming softly. "Jackie...." I mumble. My eyes shoot open and I pull back. "H-how long have you been..." He smiles. "Long enough to know you hug my pillow because it smells like me." I blush. "Well only when I'm sad..." I start to get up and he stops me. "You look exhausted love. Please sleep some more. I promise I won't touch you." I think before sighing heavily and giving in.

I grab his pillow curling up with it. He hums. "Thank you." He says softly. I sigh before dozing off. I don't remember how long it's been when I groan loudly rolling over into Jackson. I smile nuzzling my face into his neck with a soft hum. "Ugh...Teagan...." I hear Jackson whisper. "Shhh pillows don't talk." I feel him smile lightly at me. Before I doze off completely.

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I wake up nuzzled softly into him and I frown at the ring stabbing me through my jeans. I sigh pulling it out. I look at it before glancing at Jackson. "I love you more than words Jackie but I'm scared. I'm scared that you want a kid so bad you'll get upset that you can't have it. But worst than anything is I'm considering it. Somedays I'm worried that I could be and I might not know. I have so much in my head. Taking this ring off wasn't fair to you though. I'm sorry Jackie but I just don't know how to tell you this when you're awake. Face to face."

H hums. "You just did baby." I blush harshly. "No...no Jackie you weren't supposed to..." He smiles opening his eyes. "But I did." I cover my face. "Slide that ring back on your finger love. That has nothing to do with this." I sigh knowing he's right. I slide the ring back on my finger. He takes my hands before I can put them back over my face. "Now listen. What's going on baby?" I frown. "I don't know..." He brushes the hair from my face. "You do. You deep down you know baby. It'll come to you." I chuckle. "I think I'm too scared to admit what I want." He presses his nose to mine. "Why?" I sigh.

"I don't know if I can take it." He smiles. "Look at me baby. WE can take anything." I look into his eyes before leaning in softly to kiss him. I pull back falling into him. "I'm sorry." He smiles. "It's okay." He whispers softly and the room falls silent. A peaceful silence that has my mind racing faster and faster with each second. It wraps me up but strangely I'm okay with that.

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