Ever After

Chapter 40: Comfortable

*Two Weeks Later*

I sigh wrapping the towel around my head. My panties sit high on my hips and I clasp by bra behind my back. I step out of the bathroom thankful that the bedroom is empty. It's been a few weeks and I haven't even been able to act intimate with Jackson. Not since we brought up everything. Each day gets a little harder to face him.

The door opens and Jackson steps in. He sighs loosening his tie. He's been working all day and I couldn't complain. It was better than it being strangely awkward all day.

He huffs. "Hey baby." He say pecking my lips. I let my arms cover my stomach. "Long day?" He huffs unbuttoning his shirt. "Of course." He glances at me. "Is everything okay?" He asks touching my wrist. I look up at him. "Yeah. I'm gonna get dressed." He smiles leaning into me. "What's the rush?" I swallow. "C-cold." He raises an eyebrow. "I'm cold." He cups my face. "I can keep you warm." I shake my head. "I think a jumper will do." I say rushing into the closet. He huffs following me. "Teagan..." I throw his jumper over my head nuzzling into it. "See problem fixed." He catches my arm. "You've been really distant lately." I fake a smile. "I don't..." "You do. What's wrong?" I look down shaking my head. "I don't want to have sex with you." He lifts my face. "Who said you had too baby girl?" I huff. "No I mean not just today. I'm scared to have sex with you." He furrows his eyebrows. "I'm not following."

I huff. "What if I get pregnant?" He smiles. "Can I?" He asks reaching for my hand and I give it to him. He leads me out of the closet to the bed where we sit. His tie is loosened and his shirt is messily unbuttoned at the top. He looks exhausted but handsome nonetheless. "Do you remember when we first started dating and you told me you were scared? Scared of this very same thing. What if you got pregnant?" I nod softly. "Do you remember what I told you?" I nod. "We wouldn't do it until I was comfortable knowing there was always a possibility."

He smiles. "And I still feel that way. Listen if you are uncomfortable in anyway don't hesitate to tell me. I never want to hurt you Teagan. And maybe this has nothing to do with me. Maybe it's some inner conflict between yourself but I'm fine with waiting if that's what you need." I smile leaning over to kiss him.

"Jackie I love you." He smiles. "I love you more baby." I lay my head on him. "I need a shower love." I cling to him. "You smell good. Just like always." I blush. "I'm sorry that was weird." He laughs. "No it wasn't. How about I bathe and you order anything you'd like. I've got to kiss the kids goodnight even though they are probably asleep. Is it really almost ten?" I laugh.

"Jackie you must be exhausted. You don't have to stay up listening to me." He hums. "Listening to you is the only thing keeping me sane." I smile widely. "You're the best Jackie." He hums. "That's all you." I blush watching him disappear into the bathroom.

*

"Whatever." I laugh taking another bite of ice cream. "I'm serious. Cody went to sit down and the chair just fell apart and all right in front of the client." I snicker loudly and he just smiles widely at me. "It's like the old days. When I used to stay over and we'd stay up all night just talking. I didn't matter what came next as long as we could do that again every night." He brushes the hair from my face. "Yeah. It almost is. Except I remember you kissing me a lot." I scuff. "Yeah sure." He smirks. "It's true."

I huff. "You never pulled away." He hums. "In my defense I had a beautiful girl laying in my bed that was just as afraid of loving me as I was her no matter how right it felt. And boy did it feel right. With every kiss I feel a little deeper. You had my heart what difference did it make if for just one night you stole a few kisses and maybe a few cuddles?" I smile laying my head on his shoulder.

"Jackson..." He looks down at me. "You are everything I've ever dreamed of and you know if we could stay in this moment forever I wouldn't care if I had ten kids with you but we can't Jackie and...sometimes I'm scared with the two girls we have that we won't make it. I don't want to lose you."

He kisses me. "How long have I loved you Teagan?" I shrug softly. "Seven years. I can't let you go baby and if you think I'm gonna let you break you're wrong. I'll glue you together time and time again." He glances at the clock. "It's late we should...." I press my lips to his leaning my body into his. I wiggle my way between his legs. "Love?" I press my nose to his. "Just thinking about you in that suit." He smiles. "Listen I'm happy that your getting more comfortable but I don't want you making a rational decision." I play with my sleeves pouting some. "You're right. I'm sorry." He moves me to lay with him. "Don't apologize. If the circumstances were different I would have gladly have accepted. I need it right about now but I love you to much to care at the moment. Please get some sleep." He pecks my head and I reach out for him. "Jackie..." He pulls me flat against him and I practically purr out against him.

"I love you." I whisper and  he smiles. "I'll always love you Tea." I smile softly before dozing off. When I wake up it's only about three I'm the morning and Emma is wedged between us. She looks up at me. "What are you doing sweetie?" She sighs. "Missed daddy." I frown. "Sorry." She smiles. "Daddy works so he can by me gifts. Daddy loves me so much he gives up all his time. Maybe me and sissy don't get much of it but I known that he loves us." I smile kissing her head. "I love you." She giggles softly. "I love you too mommy." "I love you guys more." Jackson says rolling to drape his arm over the both of us. We smile before drifting off back to sleep.

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