Chapter 42: Forgiven

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I'm sitting in the bath tub my heads laying against the wall and the warm water is soaking up my worries. I hear him come into the bedroom and I just sink deeper into the water. There's a gentle knock. "Love? I'm so sorry. I'm so very sorry. I should have told you no matter how stressed or upset you would have been. I admit I was at fault but I do not want anything to do with her. Truth be told you're the only blonde I ever had a thing for." I roll my eyes. "And what about Sarah?" He huffs. "I never had a thing for her like I do you baby. I loved her sure but it felt nothing like this does." I'm silent and he sighs giving up I assume as I hear him leave. Eventually I pull the plug wrapping the towel around my body tucking it into place.

I peek out seeing Jackson and I huff. I step out making my way quickly to the closet. I shut the doors grabbing a pair of underwear before dropping the towel. I don't waste time on a bra so I just pull on a long sleeve shirt pulling the sleeves up. I search for shorts but I have no luck. There's a knock and I pull the shirt down to cover my lower half. He sticks his arm in holding out my favorite pair of shorts. I take them gently and he just pulls his arm back through closing the door.

I slide them on before stepping out. He sighs softly sliding closer to the edge of the bed. I frown because I know he's doing this for me. "Are we ever gonna talk this out or am I gonna have to spend the rest of my life not looking at my wife?" I clear my throat. "First let's put the wife thing on hold second I'm very upset Jackson. You held me and our child last night and you didn't bother to even mention that this lady kissed you."

He turns to me as I stand over my side of the bed. "I messed up. That's obvious. I love you. You're the love of my life. She kissed me and it felt like the most emptiest thing I've ever felt. I can lay with you day and night and I'll never get tired. I could roll around in this sheets forever but only with you. I'm so sorry baby. I hope you can forgive me. Please. Even if it's not now. Just don't make me spend the rest of my life like this." I sigh. "I'll think about it." He smiles. "Thank you."

He rolls back over and I sit down. "Ummm Jackie..." He hums. "It doesn't mean I forgive you. It's far from it. I'm still beyond mad but...I have cramps..." He smiles at me and I shake my head. "Never mind." He hums opening his arms. "Come on love." I crawl into his arms. "I mean it Jackson. This doesn't mean anything." He nods. "That doesn't mean I can't take advantage of this moment." I smile. "I guess so." I lay my head on his shoulder. He rubs soft circles into my hips and I start to doze off. I hum. "I love you. God you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You and my beautiful girls. And I wish I had opened my mouth. Somedays I wish I hadn't though. I wonder how much better off you could be without me. You could have been something. I just take and take from you. God I'm such an ass."

I frown. "You saved me all those years ago." I whisper softly. "I'm exactly who I'm supposed to be with you." He shakes his head. "No someone better could have saved you darling. I don't deserve to be here with you I mean you've given up everything. I'm so sorry." He says and I look up at him seeing some tears build up. "Jackie...." He looks at me.

"Don't do that." He frowns. "I deserve to feel this way." I shake my head. "No you don't Jackson. We deserve to be happy and maybe lately I've been upset but we'll get over it and I'll be just as happy as I've ever been. I can't spend my life without you and I'd never forgive you if you made me." He cups my face. "Oh baby I could never do that. I can't live without you either. It's pointless to try." I stare blankly at him before leaning in some. I get a very painful cramp and I whine letting my face fall into his neck. He smiles. "How about I get you some ice cream?" I frown. "If you leave I'll kill you and keep your body here forever." He laughs hysterically. I lift my face. "I'm serious." He stops laughing clearing his throat. "Okay message received." I smile. "That made me sound a bit crazy. I just don't want to be without you right now. You know how I get during...well you know." He nods. "It's Okay love just thought you could use some ice cream but I'm here."

I hum moving his hand to my hip and he gently rubs again. I hum. He pulls back a bit looking at me before leaning down to kiss me. He eventually pulls back and I wrap my arms around his neck pulling him back down. "Does this mean I'm forgiven?" I shake my head. "No this means I'm a girl at the end of a month that just needs her fiancé." He smiles. "Girls are confusing." I laugh. "So are boys." We kiss a little bit more. "Mommy I spilled my juicey." I pull back looking at Emma. "That's alright sweetie. Let's get you changed. Daddy needs to make a trip to the store anyways." Jackson nods softly as I scoop her up leaving. "Thanks Jackie." He pecks my cheek and then Emma's. "I love you sweet cheeks." She giggles. "I love you too daddy." We part ways as I head into her room changing her.

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"That's enough for now." I say holding my stomach throwing the ice cream container in the garbage. He smiles. "As long as you're content." I smile laying my head on his chest. "Very content." He taps my nose. "Can we talk now?" I swallow. "About?" He sighs. "Selena." I stiffen. "What's that? Sadie needs her mommy. I'll be right there!" I turn to him. "I didn't hear her call." I smile. "Well she did." He grabs my wrist. "Teagan stop..." I huff. "I have to help my daughter Jackson." He shakes his head. "No you just don't want to talk. We have to love." I huff standing. "I don't...want to hear it..." He stands taking my hands.

"Why?" I look down at our hands. "I'm scared of what you'll say. What I'll say." He lifts my face. "Baby I'm gonna say what I usually say. I love you. I want you ever second of every day. I'm sorry and I was completely in the wrong. I should have told you. It should have been the first thing I did. I'll admit my wrongs but the last few hours I've had with you was way better than two seconds with anyone else." I smile kissing him softly before falling into his embrace. "I forgive you Jackson but don't let it happen again." He hums. "Of course. I promise." He ushers me to the bed. "Why don't we get some sleep baby?" I nod softly before climbing in bed. I fall into his embrace and think that maybe this is it. We could stay here forever and he could make it in the long run. Don't matter what happens. I'll always end up here in his arms every night.

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