Roommates (Logan Paul and Why Don't We) [Discontinued]

Chapter 44

I was quickly scrolling through twitter during breakfast to notice a private message from Shawn, and I my eyes lit up since he hasn't talked to me since the concert from a month ago. 

@ShawnMendes: Still have my sweatshirt? 

@Puppybeauty: Of course I do, want it back? U can come over and get it

@ShawnMendes: How about I just come over, but you keep it? 

@Puppybeauty: I like that also. Here's my address xxxxxxxxx

@ShawnMendes: Be there at 12

@Puppybeauty: See you there

I put my phone down and walked over towards Alfie in his high chair to make sure he wasn't throwing food towards the dogs. He wasn't, he was just quickly eating along with Louis who had already finished, but was just waiting for both Alfie and I to finish, so he could play. 

"Louis, it's okay, you can go play by yourself with your cars. You wanna do that?" I asked.

"No!" Louis protested.

"But when you play with Alfie you don't share anyway," I replied and Louis just looked at me for a second before running off along with Bamm-Bamm and Lucy. 

A few minutes later Alfie finished up because he started throwing his food all over the place. I picked it up and had Alfie pick some of it up also, and then I put all the dishes in the sink. That's when I carried Alfie over to where Louis was playing with his cars and driving them on top of Lucy, who didn't bite. 

Louis kept rolling his cars and then he looked at Alfie, "Wanna take?" 

"Yes!" Alfie exclaimed putting his hand out and Louis handed him the car. 

"I share! I share!" Louis exclaimed looking at me.

"Yes Louis, you did share," I smiled at him.

"Where's Daddy?" Louis questioned. 

"Daddy isn't going to be around anymore for a while. I told you," I reminded and I saw Louis' lips quiver. I immediately prepared myself for the fit he was about to throw. 

"WANT HIM! NOW!" Louis cried, "WANT CAR BACK!" 

I sighed and began speaking, "Lou, that's not how you get what you want. You offered the car to Alfie and it's his turn to play with it, and as for Daddy. You'll see Daddy later, and later one of Mommy's friends is coming over. So, will you be good for him?" 

"No! Miss him," Louis sniffled running over to the couch and crossing his arms.

"Louis, listen to Mommy. Crying isn't going to get you anywhere. Mommy misses Daddy too very much, but Daddy's done some questionable things. Now, how about we just watch Mickey Mouse right now and you can play with the trains while Alfie plays with the cars. You'll see Daddy later," I sat next to Louis and looked him in the car, "Okay?" 

"Okay," Louis sighed. 

"I love you," I stated.

"Love you, Mama," Louis replied and I went over to the TV and switched the channel to Mickey Mouse and Louis watched intensely. 

After Mickey Mouse was over, I played with Alfie and Louis a little more and then the doorbell rang. Both the dogs and the boys ran over to the door and barked at it. I opened it and that's when I saw Shawn. 

Lucy jumped up at Shawn, but I pulled her off and Bamm-Bamm just sniffed his feet. Shawn smiled at the dogs and pet them, and then the dogs ran off while the boys just stared at Shawn in awe. 

"Hey, Louis and Alfie. Aren't you both so handsome?" Shawn complimented as I brought Shawn to the sunroom and the boys followed. Louis just nodded his head and dragged his little brother to go play more with the trains and cars, "Also Emma, can I go wash my hands. I forgot to say that I'm allergic to dogs." 

"Oh, of course, I'm so sorry they jumped on you then. You can just wash them in the kitchen sink just go down this hall," I pointed and Shawn nodded his head quickly returning just a few minutes later. 

"Hey, Mr!" Louis exclaimed and Shawn turned to him. 

"Yes, Lou?" Shawn asked. 

"Play cars with us!" Louis invited. 

"Sure," Shawn smiled heading over to him and sitting down, "Mama gonna play too!" 

I sat down with Shawn and my boys and I played cars for another thirty minutes. The way Shawn interacted with the boys was amazing, it was as if he had kids himself (which I knew he didn't). Since it was 12:30, I had to put the boys down for a quick nap or else they'd both get to an unbelievable level of crankiness that I swear their real father would be the devil himself. 

Shawn helped me put the boys down to sleep and he sang to them as Daniel would do. When it was just Shawn and I we sat down and watched a movie together. I didn't really watch the movie though because all I could watch was every action of Shawn's. 

Midway through the movie, I found myself inching closer to him. Shawn wrapped his arm around me and looked down at me as I smiled up at him and inched my face closer to his. That's when our lips touched and then I quickly pulled away.

"I'm sorry, it's not right. I recently got out of a relationship," I made up an excuse, "Can we just forget about it?" 

"Sure," Shawn answered and I smiled at him as he still kept his arm in the same position and as I stayed cuddled up against him. 

I was breaking my promise of never to date a musician again, especially since I was still in love with Daniel even though he was in love with Angie and claimed to still be in love with me. Love was too complicated, and I didn't want to be involved in it for a long time. 

Especially with someone I knew would disappear for long periods of time and claim to always come back, because what happens when they don't? I'll answer that question with one word: Daniel. Daniel happens, you fall in love with someone and they slowly break your heart.