Teenage Wasteland {hood a.u.}

Chapter 20- Let Her Go

Friday, September 6, 2013.

Dear Dallas,

Hi, I'm not sure how much Jasey has told you about me, but I am her boyfriend, Calum. Jasey would be writing to you, but she won't be able to write to you for awhile.

I know that Jasey loved you very much and she would constantly tell me how you and i were just alike. Not in looks, but personality wise. She was devestated when you left. I don't know what has gotten into her lately. For the past month she hasn't seemed like herself. Or the Jasey that I met.

I know she has been through a lot, and I really believed that I could have been the one to have saved her. I don't really think it was possible for me to save her, now that I think about it. She was not fighting with parents, or friends, she was fighting with herself. She was having an internal battle with herself and could not figure out how to get better. I feel bad for her, I really do. I wish that I would have known how bad it was. Maybe, just maybe I could have done something.

I'm dumb. I should have realized that something was up with her. It's my fault, really. I should have asked her if she needed help or anything, instead I was just her shoulder to cry on and a pillow to snuggle.

I'm so sorry that this happened. I did not mean for any of this to happen. I am so sorry. She's a better place now. The doctors say that there was nothing that I could do to help her, but I feel like there was. I've let her down. I've let myself down as well. For fucks sake, I've probably let you down as well.

I hope she's in a better place now. I can't really tell you how exactly she's doing. She doesn't really like to talk about that, she keeps the subject on different things. I visit her every weekend. 

Jasey checked into Casa Palmera on Wednesday, September 4, 2013. After a little persuasion from her legal guardians, her best friend, and I, we finally got her to realize that she should be seeking some medical help. Everything that was happening to her was beyond our control, and it just hurt everyone around her, seeing her how she was. 

They didn't say how long Jasey would be checked into the rehabilitation center, but I'm hoping that she will be out by Christmas.

I really just want her to get better. It hurt to see her the way that she was. I really want everything to work out for her. She deserves a good life. She doesn't deserve everything that she has been through. She's a tough one. But, even the toughest have to give up sometimes. 

Sincerely,

Calum Hood