{ Katy's P.O.V }
I woke up to the strong feeling of arms being unwrapped from my body and I immediately knew it was Orlando. I opened my eyes and moved my head to the right so I could greet him this morning.
"Good morning." I said while caressing his cheek.
"Good morning Katy."
"Excited to go home? I honestly can't even express how I feel. I'm so glad we'll finally get to spend Christmas and new year together. I'm looking forward to that."
"Me too. It feels like life will be good and beautiful but not without heartbreak. In death comes peace but pain is the cost of living like love is how we know we're alive."
"Wow who told you that?"
"You actually know I lost my father at a very young age, I didn't even know what death felt like nor what it was at that time. So before sleeping, my mother would always comfort me by teaching me a few things about life which I would remember and I used to cherish this quote a lot because it inspired me."
"Aw I'm so sorry for your loss. I already told you this but you probably don't remember."
"You're right I don't remember but thank you."
I faced the ground, feeling slightly sad because I just want Orlando back. He's probably here physically but not mentally and that's what I really want. I want him to tell me how much he loves me without being scared of admitting it and I want to be able to return it back.
"Hey I'm really sorry for not being able to remember you but I promise you I will try my best."
"It's okay you know? It's not your fault. What matters is you being okay."
"Yeah but I really want to be able to go back to my old lifestyle because I don't feel like I'm myself right now. It has to change."
I got up from the bed to be met by Orlando's doctor standing in the corner of the room waiting for our discussion to be done so he could come in.
"Good morning M. Bloom. Good morning Ms Bloom." I turned my head a bit to see Orlando looking at me, shocked. I knew how he would react.
"No I'm not his fiancée nor his wife." I sighed sadly
"Oh I apologize. I really thought you guys were married." I smiled thinking of Orlando and I being married. It made me feel so happy yet so weird
"Um we're not. Someday maybe."
My jaw dropped. I couldn't even believe Orlando said that. My heart was suddenly so happy, I was happy myself. It was great hearing that from him because I truly trust him and I hope I can become Ms Bloom one day.
"I hope so, you guys form a cute couple."
"Thank you." I said first, my mouth hurting because of smiling widely
We had an awkward silence afterwards probably meaning the doctor and Orlando wanted to have a talk between both of them and that's it so I decided to excuse myself and go outside, to wait for Orlando to get dressed.
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"Ready to go home?" I asked while pulling away from the hospital driveway
"Yeah I'm really excited to see what your house looks like. But can we go to Starbucks first? I want to drink something."
"Sure but talking about that, you sure you want to go with me? I can give you space for a bit if you want to. It doesn't bother me at all. I really don't mind that."
"No it's okay. I want to spend time with you and you're probably the only one who can make me remember."
"Okay then. By the way, I talked to your mother."
"You did?"
"Yeah I informed her of what happened and I told her you were totally okay so she doesn't have to worry about you. I didn't tell her about your memory loss though. I don't want her to be scared or anything."
"Thank you honestly, she would've been so scared if you didn't inform her. I really miss her so much. I thought I would spend with her Christmas and new year."
"Hey it's okay buddy. You're going to see her soon." I said while carefully tapping his lap
"How? She doesn't have to see me like this. I have to get my memory back first; and I don't know when I will get it back."
"It's okay, it's okay. I will make you remember."
"Thank you Katy. By the way you spell your name with an i and e?"
"Y."
"Because I want to get to know you."
"Y."
"Well because I want to send you a holiday card."
"K, a, t, y."
"Oh. Is that your real name?"
"Um it's my stage name."
"What's your real name then?"
"Guess it." I giggled
"Kathy?" I shook my head. "Kaitlyn?" I shook my head once more. "Kate?" I shook my head twice at a time. "I'm running out of ideas." He admitted
"Do you want to know my whole name?" He nodded. "Well my actual name is Katheryn Elizabeth and my family name is-"
"Hudson I know this one! But wow your name is actually so beautiful. And it fits you perfectly because you... you... are... um... beautiful."
"Thank you so much." I blushed. It wasn't the first time he's telling me this but it was the first for him and he sounded so nervous which made me blush because of how cute he seemed while saying that. "And here we are at Starbucks. Let's go bud."
We found an empty table in a perfect empty spot, great for the both of us and we sat there after ordering and taking our drinks there.
"So," he continued, looking at my eyes. I stared into his gorgeous brown eyes; finding myself getting lost within them and losing focus as he started smiling
"So?"
I put my hand on his. I was so nervous but I concealed it well. My blue eyes sparkling in the sunlight as I waited for him to speak again. I could tell he was a little nervous too, judging by his hand sweating slightly underneath mine.
"Hey I love you so much. Don't be so nervous in front of me." He only smiled. Not returning an "I love you too" which I really understood. "I know you're not ready to say that back to me and I really understand that. Take your time."
"That's where I want to get."
"What are you talking about?"
"Can you just please avoid saying things like 'I love you'?"
"What? Why?"
"I'm just not ready for it. You're still a stranger to me."
It hit me hard in my heart when he said that. At first I thought he was joking. But he was really being serious judging by his look. I can't believe he treats me like a stranger now. I immediately stopped taking his hand in mine and looked away for a few seconds. I was hurt.
"So now I'm a stranger? The person who loved you for so many years and spent most of the time with you is a stranger?"
"That's not what I meant goddamn it."
"Probably but you admitted it. Just stop lying to me. We should stop seeing each other for now. It's crazy how people can change in the nick of time." I got up from my seat, took my purse and stormed out of Starbucks
"No katy wait."
It was too late. I was already out. He kept on calling for my name but that was the least thing I wanted to hear right now; his voice.
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Fanfiction"if you think that I didn't think about you because you don't mean as much to me as everybody else; you're wrong, it's because you mean more to me." @moonlightkatyy || 2017
