Not A Couple

9. A new beginning

Jane's POV
"I know I know. A dog it is then" Bin said and I could not help smiling. He is the best person in this world and I don't wish to see him suffer because of me. I know how much it hurts him to see me like this....crying over the past. The past that can not be changed. The past that defines the person I am. The past which has trapped me in its fingers and is slowly crumbling me by closing its fists. It's about time I let it go. I want Bin to be happy and if I suffer like this it won't be possible. He can easily see through my facade. Therefore, this once I must try and be genuinely happy if not for myself then for him.
"I promise that this is the last time you will see me cry Bin," I said.

"Don't make a promise you can't keep?" he said grief visible in his eyes. He had started crying in the process of calming me down. I wonder if he even acknowledges the fact that he is crying. Looking at the photographs brought back every memory I have tried to forget. No No!!!! I can't start thinking about that again. Jane controls you, no thoughts of the past. None at all.

"I am not making a promise I won't keep. This time it's true and genuine. I won't trouble you ever again."

"You do not trouble me, Jane," he said and in reply, I glared at him.
"Okay okay sometimes you do but you know if you won't trouble me then you wouldn't be you" he continued.

I rolled my eyes. I can be me even if I don't trouble him. He is not that innocent either. He has had his rough times too.
"And you wouldn't be you if you don't trouble me, right?" I said knowing that it was a very lame thing to say.
"Yeah, true. You plan on sleeping tonight?" He asked.
"It's almost four in the morning. We can watch a movie instead. I really am not sleepy" I said already making up my mind about the movie we shall watch.
"What makes you think that I am not sleepy either?" He said scrunching up his nose.
I ran a hand through my hair to prevent them from falling in my eyes and said " Cause you are a night owl and movies are something you can not say no to even if you haven't slept for days"
"Hey, that's not true!!" He said pouting.
"Pouting won't make your accusations more effective Bin"
"So which movie??" He inquired and at the same instant, his stomach grumbled flaunting his desire and need for food. Flaunting might not be the right word but the grumbling was loud and it can be classified as flaunting.
"Let's watch Halloween. Your stomach seems rather excited to watch it. It is even cheering for the movie"
"You set up the system and I will cook something up for us," he said with the tone that says 'it is final and should not be argued with'.
"Noo!!! I will cook something and you set up the system" I rebelled like a five-year-old who is forbidden to take the candy when candy is all he wants.
"I don't wish to die today. You are the worst cook in the entire world.....no, not world....entire universe actually. Even aliens cannot compete against you."
"That's not true," I said pouting, using the trick he uses.
"Pouting won't make my accusations false Jane," he said. Is he seriously using my dialogues against me??
"Alright alright. You cook and I will set up the movie" I said accepting my defeat.
"What do you wanna eat??" He asked as he nibbled on his lower lip. I actually find that very cute. This has been his habit since we were little.
"Ummm.... What is better than popcorn during movie??"
"Something that can actually fill our stomachs," he said.
My jaw clenched at his remark.
"Make anything you want," I said marching out of the kitchen.
I retrieved the laptop from my room and found the movie. Connected the laptop to the television and transformed our stiff couch into a cosy and soft one by bringing a ton of pillows and covering the entire place with blankets. This is what heaven feels like. I laid down on the couch draping the blankets over my fragile body. The clattering of utensils faded into nothingness as darkness overtook me.

Jane's POV finally. I really wanted to write this. I hope this will help you connect with her more. She does not act like a broken person because she tries to hide her pain from Robin and she has to convince her​ mind every now and then. That's why her thoughts are also not that sad cause she is not letting any bad thoughts spoil her mood of beginning anew. Hope you liked it. Vote, comment and follow.