Not A Couple

29. Prince Charming

Deep beneath the ocean,
And high above the sky,
Beyond all the emotion,
Over the skyscrapers that stand so high,
With all my devotion,
I believe each of us can fly.

"What can you learn in a life so small?"
"What will you achieve by racing like all others do?"
I can get my name written in the great hall,
The best food in the world I can have the pleasure to chew.
Life is but a game after all,
By the end of which all of our bodies turn blue.

But my friend, it is not as small as you say,
The age of our death does not define our regime,
Life is as great as Santa's sleigh,
A mere imagination but a child's windchime.
Live every day as if it's your birthday,
With a smile on your face, you must dine.

Snow jumped in Jane's lap and all of the eyes turned to him. It was as if he could sense our displeasure. The arrival of Ethan definitely wasn't a good news but it did not mean that it was the end of our lives. As they say, the show must go on. What is our life if not a show for the god above? I don't understand why he makes the life of his own children miserable. However, I believe that everything that ever happens is important and who knows maybe in the future we will look upon this day and laugh at ourselves. Maybe we would say how easily we all lost our hopes. How Jane crumbled once again under the weight of her own actions. How she could have stopped everything from happening if she had not asked him to leave that day.
"I think you ought to tell him the entire deal, Bin", Jane said.
"What do you mean?", asked Matt.
I suppose I do have to tell him and Irene everything.
"Okay, I told you that we never got to meet Ethan that day. That he just left, right? Well, that's not exactly what happened"
Matt furrowed his eyebrows in confusion and Irene looked at me asking me to continue and be done with it. And that is precisely what I did.
"In the evening, around sevenish, he arrived at Jane's door. I wasn't there then. And I think you should continue from here Jane"
She lifted her head up to give me a defeated look. She obviously did not wish to speak about it. But this is something only she can do since I am not completely aware of the events of that day either.
"Matt, you need to know that it was in another lifetime that all of it occurred. I was madly in love and I am not that person anymore. That day, after calling his mobile and checking his house, I couldn't help but cry. He was the only person I loved. No one before him cause I always knew that everyone was trying to use me but not him. He wasn't using me. He was as much in love with me as I was with him. After my father left and my mom was nothing but a woman who completed her motherly duties, there was no one for me. And when Ethan entered my life, I felt better. He made me laugh, he tolerated my mood swings and most of all, he never forced himself on me like others did. He was everything that I ever wanted. He was my Prince Charming.
"So when I couldn't find him even for a single evening, it drove me mad. I cried and cried until my tear glands were empty. After he knocked on my door that evening, I punched him in the face. At first, he didn't understand the reason for my sudden outburst. When I explained to him that I thought he left like everyone I had ever loved had, his expression darkened. And I knew that all my fears had come true. He was indeed leaving me, not that day but in a month. I was so damn angry at him that I asked him to fucking leave me alone and never come back. He slapped me and punched me in the gut. He left me there to bleed. I cried myself to sleep every night after that. He left the town because of me and I like the stupid person I was hoped for him to come back. I still love him, I do but I hate him more. He won't go without what he desires to have."
All of us had been listening to her intently, even Snow. Everything was clear to all the people sitting on that table, now.
"There is something I want to know", Matt said.
"Yeah?", Jane answered
"The way you described him, he seems like a perfect gentleman. And you said you love him, don't you? What is the problem? As I see it, the poor guy came to you to tell you the truth and you were the one to make him go away, then why do you hate him so much?"
"Don't you like her, Matt?", I asked.
"Yes, I do. But Jane loves him, there is no hope for me.", he said casually.
"Then why are you encouraging her to be with him. Not that she would ever agree"
"I just need to know the goddamn reason for her hatred towards him"
"Chill out guys. He hit me, Matt. Just the way my father used to hit my mother. Don't you understand that? Yes I love him but only because he was there for me when even I wasn't there for myself"
"You do realise that you are the cause of everything that has happened and everything that is going to happen from now on?", Matt said tapping his index finger on his chin. How could he be so mean to her?
"Yes, I am aware of that"
"What are you doing Matt? She is not responsible for anything. If she had not asked him to leave that day, she would never have realised how big of an asshole he was. Thank god that she did it", I said.
"If she had not asked him to leave, she would still be happy with him and she would not have cried herself to sleep all these years"
"Come on Jane, we ought to leave.", Irene said offering her hand to Jane to help her get up.
"When you realise that it was Ethan's fault, give me a call", Jane said.
She hooked her arm with mine and after settling Snow in her free arm, she opened the door following Irene out.