Warble Meets the Opposite (KathNiel - COMPLETED)

MELODY XX

"And my heart is torn in two thinking of days spent without you"

- Last Time (Secondhand Serenade)

~[x]~

[NOCTURNE]

People come and go. Some are just cigarette breaks while others can be a forest fire. Anyway, that's still the same — they're not staying.

I gaze  for a long time on a shiny blade beside me, however, I don't think I can find an answer for my question if I will so I didn't.  Instead, I pull the drawer and look for my notebook and started writing.

But baby, you're a beautiful butterfly while I am a thunderstorm,

If I fall for you, what do I teach the clouds but to fall for forest fires too?

And what good will it do but kill the very thing they love, extinguish the fire they crave?

Let me see your beautiful colors from a distance and smile

Let me just sit here instead and watch you fly.

Closing the notebook, I made a deep sigh. Thousand of thoughts flooded my mind. Fret always reminds me of the sky. Its magnificence, its temporary lights, and how faraway it is from me, and oh.. How much I need him closer.

At first, alam ko na dadating yung point na ganito. The point that I can't even imagine but now, it feels like being empty. Ganoon naman talaga tayo ka-tanga diba? We ignore truths for temporary happiness.

Lyra calling..

"Are you sure about this?"

"I am," I stated strongly.

Starting to the drawer, to the cabinet, everything. I put them on a large box and bags. As I open the door, aling Marsha is looking at me. She gave me a hug and caress my cheeks, "Mami-miss kita, anak," she smiled. "Dumalaw-dalaw ka dito ha?" I just nod at her and taps her shoulder.

A Fortuner is waiting, and oh.. Lyra is waving at me and resting her wide smile. "Nocturne!"

Aling Marsha and I exchanged a smile. Leaving her is painful but I think I made a right choice.

"How's mom and dad?" I plainly asked. I saw her fake a smile. "Ganoon pa din."

"Aren't you going to ask me if they miss you?"

"Why would I? I already know what'll be the answer." she just shrugged her shoulders. She offers me a lollipop and I can't help but to smile. "You remind me of someone," I said. "Hmm? Sino?"

I just shook my head. My phone beeped and his name pop up. I wanted to reply and told him about how my day went or my yesterday, the other day. Ilang weeks yata na we didn' have a long conversation. Good mornings and kumusta texts, hindi yun nawawala, but still, I miss the old us on how we spend our nights talking with each other. I don't want to disturb him because who am I? I believe that I don't have to beg for someone just to make them stay beside me. Despite of knowing that he will always be there, ang kapal naman ng mukha ko if everyday and night, I'm gonna call him just because he told me that he's only one call, chat, or text away.

Sometimes, you should have a battle for yourself without needing anybody's help. They are sometimes busy fighting for their own so you really need to learn how. Just because you have no idea or assurance on what may come, you won't do it. You have to find it on your own by trying. Trying just like this, I'm trying to distant myself from him but I thing he didn't even notice. Parang sa kaniya, okay lang, I won't be mad naman kasi. I am slowly moving out of his heart but he didn't notice because at first, it feels like I was never there.