SECRET. (On going )

Happy dance.

"No!" I shoot over to Joseph. He was scooting towards the coffee table with the glass vase. Jon's been gone 4 months now and I miss him a lot. I grab Joe and put him in the safety gate.

"Play with your toys baby."

The twins have started to move around a lot. Like a lot.

I run over to Ari" Get that out your mouth!" 

She had picked up a piece of something tracked in from outside. I need to clean, and I need to rest. I need to do a lot of things.  I pick up Ariana and put her in the swing. "How about kangaroo mode?" she smiles as I turn on the swing.

I turn and start to walk to the kitchen when the phone starts to ring. I grab the phone off the kitchen wall. "Umm...Hello?" to my happiness it's Jon.

"Hey baby, how's it going?"

I sigh "Its going... I've been really busy."

"Why didn't you do what I suggest? You'd get the help you need."

Jon suggested I get a nanny to help out with the twins. I don't want just anybody with my kids.

"I don't know Jon... It's just I don't want anybody with my kids Jon." Jon laughs "Babe I know, but hell help is better than none."

"Just let me think about it, okay?"

I hear him "hmm"

"Yeah, I guess."

"You know how much I miss you Jon?"

"Not as much as me, I promise."

Joseph starts to cry. "I have to go, I think it's time for Joseph to be fed." Jon hangs up. "Let's go baby boy."

* * *

It's about midnight and I'm still online trying to look for the "best" nanny I can find.

My phone starts to ring. "Hello?"

"So you are still up. Why haven't you amswered?"

I sigh. "Sorry Sammy, I've been looking for a nanny for the twins, I'm not having any luck."

"Want me to come down? I need to talk to you anyways."

"About?" I slowly stretched.

Sammy laughs "Remember  that guy I told you about?"

"The one your brothers hate because he's in a gang?"

She laughs" Yes, Ronny. Well...He purposed! "

I shriek" Oh my gosh! I'm really happy for you doll tell me what happened !"