SECRET. (On going )

Taking it a day at a time.

"Jon can't you ask for a shorter time?"

He kisses Ari."No they have something for Joe,Colby and myself to do. Joe wasn't too thrilled bout leaving his baby girl either."

"If it's really what you have to do... Then go for it. Just, when do you leave?"

He puts his princess down."Tomorrow. "

"Dang it Jonathan." I sigh" Well go pack, I need to lay Ari down for a nap."

"We'll talk later then?" I grab Ari, then walk off.

I want the best for Jon,the twins and I but, I don't want him away from its this long. I just don't want him to miss on the little things that happen. The kids first starting to crawl and walking, talking. Let alone their first birthday.

I put Ari down in her bed and turn on her mobile. " I can tell you don't won't me to leave."

I turn to Jon "What was your first clue?" I walk back downstairs to Joseph. " You don't have to act like this. It's childish if you ask me, why act this way?"

"Jon I get it, this is what is going to be best for us as a family. I understand, but I am not in this for your money.' Jon sighs "You are taking this way too serious, I mean dang it Amber I need to support this family." I snap back at Jon. "Don't tell me how you have to support this family Jon! If you didn't knock me up then I would have left you! " Then I realized what I've said to him. " Are you serious? I can't believe you just freaking said that! "

"I swear I-I-I didn't mean it." Jon starts to walk to our room "I'm going to sleep."

I sit on the floor next to Joseph. "Momma's an idiot yes?" he giggles.

* * *

After I lay Joe in his bed, I went to our room. Jon was awake on his phone texting Colby."Hi..." I say as I sit on the bed. Jon looks up at me, then back down at his phone. "What are you doing?" I lean into his face. He moves over. "Really?" I know what I said was wrong...I should think before I talk. So in one last effort to save our relationship I grab his phone. "Give it back." I nod my head. "I you want it you have to wait. " I put it down my shirt. Jon scuffs "I will go in there and get it." He pins me to the bed. "Then get it." he puts his hand down my shirt and take his phone. Then he kisses me on my head. "I love you, Jon. Forever and always." with that said he fell asleep on me.

   The next morning Jon woke me up. "Bye..." I hug him. "be safe. Call me when you land and call everyday." I let him go and watch him drive off. I'm going to have to take this year a day at a time.