SECRET. (On going )

All Breaks Free.

Jonathan by far made me pissed beyond pissed. Only reason I'm not going anywhere yet is because of the kids. They need their father, and I kind of need him too.

"Good morning,my loves." I said taking Ariana out her bed.

Jonathan walked in behind me and just watched. I pretended that he wasn't in my presence and kept doing what I was doing.

"Amber, I know you seen me."

"Come guys." I said grabbing Autumn off the changing table.

Jon grabbed my arm and jerked me back. I looked at him and jerked my arm back. I proceeded to go down stairs. I put Autumn in her bouncer and the kids in high chairs. I gave them cereal and went with Autumn.

"Amber, you've got to talk to me."

"Only reason I'll talk to you is cause the Hall of Fame ceremony is tomorrow, and I have to go with you, unless you want to show up with Renee and have people figure out what's going on. I have to get my dress I'll be back." I said walking out the door.

* * * *

By the time I was ready the twin and Jon were too. I didn't want to take Autumn, because of how young she is. I picked her up and talked to her .

"Autumn, hello my love. You're getting big, can't believe you're 3 months already."

I didn't know at the time but, Jon walked in.

"I'm so stupid for falling for you dad. I knew the first day something was up. I thought I was just being silly. I think I still am, don't fall for some like mommy did. Don't be how mommy was, and still is. I love you."

Autumn smiled. Seeing how happy I am, and how happy I was with Jon has me thinking.

I put Autumn down and turned on her night light. I just looked at her. I felt Jon put his hands around me. I looked away from her and out the window.

"I'm sorry, for everything. I'm going to make it up to you. I promise Amber, I swear I will keep my family whole. I have a surprise for you later."

"Okay, let's go."

* * * *
The ceremony was over and Jon went o stage for some unknown reason. I sat with Joseph and Ari in my lap both a sleep and Christian next to me.

Jonathan had got on the microphone and started talking. He'd given a whole speech on "his road to the company" and "how people like Hulk Hogan saved him." Then he got to the end and started talking about his family.

"I have a beautiful "wife" and 4 kids. One whose learned to except his Mom and I are together. I've put Amber through hell with this job and she's stayed there by my side. Never once did she give in on me. I own her more than anything. We've been together for almost a year and a half, when we found out that we weren't legally married. the ceremony was stopped when she went into labor."

I laughed. For the first time in forever, I felt like he actually cared.

"That's why, today Amber, I'm going to make it official. Amber will you marry me, again?"

I felt everybody was looking at me, and I didn't know what to say. Renee turned around and smiled at me.

"Do what you feel is right." she said out loud to me. Oh, but her eyes told another story.

I sat that there looking at Jon, whom was looking at me, being looked at by everyone.

What the hell do I do?