Black and White (Rin Matsuoka x fem!OC)

24.

When I stopped in front of the door with the number 36 on top of it, I remembered when I first got there. It seemed so far away now. My time was running out.

I took out my keys and opened the door, everything was quiet. Haru must have gone to sleep already. I put the keys in the bowl and walked quietly through the hall all the way to the kitchen. I poured myself a glass of water and drank it in one sitting. As if that's a hard thing to do.

If Haru doesn't take changes very well, then how has he survived till now? Life's about changes. Even if you wanna stay the same and have a routine, it's not gonna last for long. This was something else. Maybe he was mad at Makoto for some other reason. Maybe I can start from there? Maybe he's scared of feeling something so strong for him?

I don't fucking know.

Besides, how was I supposed to talk to Haru about love? If I myself didn't know what it was. I don't think any college student really knows.

I sighed heavily before going to the bathroom to brush my teeth. I opened the door and the light of the bathroom made me close my eyes, did Haru left the lights on? That's unusual.
-You should knock first- Haru's soothing voice said.
-Damn, I thought you were asleep- I said covering a bit my eyes. Not really blinding them from Haru's naked form in the tub, but from the yellow light.
-I can see that.
-It's late Haru- I said glancing at my watch.
-So? Why do you care?- He said still not looking at me.
-You're not being yourself.
-I don't want to talk to you. Go away.
-I go away for some days and now you are rude to everyone. What a change.
-I haven't changed. I just speak my mind.
-So you don't have a filter then.
-Noah, just leave me alone.
-Or what?
-Or I won't be responsible for my actions. Anger is all I can feel right now, so please just go.
-I can defend myself.
He sighed and let his head rest back on the wall.

Suddenly I had an idea, a stupid one. But it was worth a shot. I had to take him out of his comfort zone somehow, or at least make the air feel weird. I didn't know the exact outcome I wanted to get from this, but I wanted him to open again to me.

Or maybe I just wanted him to feel uncomfortable...

So I stripped until I was just in underwear. Lucky for me, I was wearing regular black underwear and not the lacey one. Haru opened his eyes when he felt the water moving, to find me sitting in front of him with a smirk.
-What do you think you're doing?- he asked blushing.
-I'm getting comfortable, you don't seem to wanna talk right now so I'll wait for you to be ready here.
-Are you listening to yourself?
-Come on Haru, live a little.
He retracted his legs a bit so he wouldn't touch mines. I spotted the small blue dolphin and took it in my hands. Before it got snatched away in a second.
-What...?
-Mine.
-I know it's yours you idiot, I just wanted to see it closely.
-No.
-Come on.
-No.
-Don't be such a child.
-No.
-Haru.
-No.
-Are you serious?
-Leave.
-It's not your tub only.
-You'll leave Tokyo soon, and you don't use it anyways.
-Soon? That's not true.
-Yes, it is. You'll leave like everyone else.
-What are you talking about?
He darted his eyes from me.
-Haru talk to me. I wanna help you if I can- I said touching his knee slightly.
-You'll tell everyone.
-I won't. Come on, since when have I tell others about you?
He kept not meeting my eyes.
-Stop it. Go away- he said showing me anger filling his eyes.
I reached my hand to touch his face, this couldn't be real, Haru couldn't be this mad... But before I could touch his porcelain skin, he moved his head to the right and scoffed.
-If you want to take care of a cry baby, you can go to Rin's place.
Wait. What.
-How dare you? He's your friend- I couldn't believe my ears.
He made a sound with his mouth. The fuck.
My hand touched his skin successfully, but not how I intended it before. It was stronger and it wasn't my palm. It was my fist. I stood up abruptly and yanked the door open.
-Wait! I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I don't know what came over me- he said almost yelling.
I stopped and looked back with a frown.
Haru stood up and walked over to me, he took my hand and pulled me back to the tub with him. His eyes didn't look emotionless anymore.
-I'm sorry- he repeated.
-Stop it, I heard you the first time.
-Then say something about it or quit frowning at me.
-You just made fun of my... of Rin.
-I know but I didn't mean to. It just slipped. I wanted you to stop trying to get me to talk...
-I won't stop trying.
-I know.
-Then?
-Give me time, it's not easy to start talking.
We both fixed our eyes on the water and let our minds wander for a bit, before speaking again. I took the dolphin that was closer to me because of the movement of the water, this time Haru didn't took it away from me.

-I think you need a drink Haru- I said minutes later.
He didn't respond, he just frowned at me.
-Don't give me that look- I said.
-How do you know I need that, if you don't know what's going on?
-Well, a drink is always a temporary solution.
-You sound like an alcoholic.
I rolled my eyes. This guy was unbelievable, I wasn't gonna take anymore of his shit.
-Ugh, fine Haruka- I said standing up and grabbing my clothes on my way out.
-You'll drop water outside if you don't dry yourself first.
-My towel isn't here, it's in my room.
-Take mine then.
I sighed and took his small towel in my hands. I didn't want to clean the hallway afterwards.
-You look nice in underwear- he whispered.
That was something I never expected to hear from him.
-Uh...thanks.
-If Rin knows about this he'd punch me.
I blushed a bit, but it was Haru, there was nothing sexual in his comment. Unless it was about Mako. He was right about Rin though.
-I think he'd murder you. That's more likely to happen. So, come with me to have a drink, and I won't tell him.
-Uh?
His eyes showed surprise.
-You heard me.
-Are you blackmailing me?
-You bet your ass I am. It's the only way I'll get you out of this tub.
-Being here for long doesn't bother me. You know that.
-Even if you start dehydrating?
-Uh?
-Look at your fingers, there look like raisins by now, don't they?
He shyly looked at them and looked away.
-It's not the first time I do this.
-I know, but it's enough for today, don't you think?
He stood up and hold out his hand, I put the towel on it and he started to dry off.
-There are some bars around Ginza metro station. Put on some clothes so we can leave- I said heading to my bedroom.
-Noah...
-What?
-Don't call me Haruka.
I rolled my eyes.
-Whatever.

The whole ride we were quiet, you couldn't tell we knew each other. I had put on my earphones while Haru just stared at the night sky from the window. Both of us lost in our thoughts. When we got to Ginza, I took his hand to get out of the wagon. He just followed. There was a lot of people despite being midnight, but it was Friday so I guess that was normal.

We got out of the station, both of us hugging our jackets because of the cold air.
-This way- I said walking to the right. Haru just nodded.
In a few minutes we got to a mall sort of, that had a bunch of bars and clubs.
-Pick one- I told Haru.
-They look fancy.
-Not all of them are, but if you prefer we can just buy beers in a convenience store and take them back to the apartment.
-You said I needed a drink, so let's get one. And not some cheap beer.
-Beers are also drinks.
-Whatever, you meant going to a bar so that's what we're doing- he said linking our arms to get inside of one.
-Okay, okay but which one?
-This one looks cool- he said pulling me towards one that looked like a haunted house, with fake guards at the entrance. Mako would had run away after seeing it from outside. I might have been about to do the same.

When we got closer to them, Haru raised his hand showing two fingers up. One of the guards nodded and with a creepy smile, he let us in. For a minute I thought he somehow knew Haru, but I quickly dismissed that thought, Haru didn't drink.

Creepy laughter welcomed us.

Where the fuck were we?

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