Our Little Secret (h.s.) // editing

"Chloe?"

|Janissa|

The words I have not even realized I wanted to hear have been ripped away. I was left distraught about the situation he had left me on unintentionally. If he'd had stay awake just a whole longer... Of course I wanted to be with Harry, but we were still so young. There was so much more than just our love to think about. I know of he were awake, he would tell me not to think so much about it. That I need to think about me for once...

I felt as Harry's hand tightened around mine as if begging me to help him wake up. I should have gotten a nurse, or at least called out for one, but I couldn't. I was too dumbfounded to find my voice.

"Wake up," I pleaded to him, "please."

|Harry|

I heard Janissa beg me to wake up. I heard her whine. I want her to keep holding me, but I know there was no way for me to voice my want. There was no way to tell her that I was trying my hardest, and that even those few seconds I was awake, drained me of my energy. I am tired of trying, so I try harder. I will keep trying until I am able to open my eyes, and see the most beautiful girl I had ever seen. I push, and push until I am able to feel my finger twitch, awarding me a gasp from Janissa.

"Try again..." She whispered against my hand. The presence of her lips gave me the strength I needed to try again, to push harder. Once again, I am awarded. My eyes fluttered open, too slowly for my liking. Beautiful brown eyes met mine as I blinked away the medicine. Her eyes grew wide as I stroked my hand across her cheek, gently. "Are you going to stay awake this time?" She laughed, tears brimming in her eyes.

"I'll try..." I smiled. My eyelids felt heavy as I tried my best to keep my promise. I have been under for way too long, seeing Janissa proved that. She looked pale, unhealthy even. Her cheekbones were protruding through her skin as she moved to lay next to me on the bed. Her shoulder bumped into mine, a small moan coming from the back of my throat. Pain shot through my body as Janissa whispered her apologizes. I didn't care about the pain, I didn't feel it to be honest. All I could focus on was Janissa. How her lips felt on my skin, her arm wrapped around my waist, her head on my chest. 

I allowed my fingers to tangle in her hair, I could feel a wet spot developing on my chest. 

"I love you, so much..." She whispered, "I thought we lost you in the ambulance, then it seemed like you weren't going to wake up. I don't know what I would have don-" She cried.

"You would have moved on..." I whispered back, interrupting her grief. "You would have met another man who loved you, and adored you as much as I do. You would grow old together, get married, and have children of your own, Janissa."

"I wouldn't want anyone else..." Her voice was small as her arms clenched my waist tighter.

"So, you want to grow old, and have children of your own?"

"One day..."

I couldn't help the smile that overcame my face. The thought of Janissa and I having a baby of our own one day excites me like crazy. To have been responsible for producing a small child with the woman I loved more than anything. Just the thought of being with her forever had my stomach going crazy like I was in grade school again. Then the thought occurred to me, what if it wasn't me she wanted to have a family with? What if she left me before we were able to make our love permanent?

"With me?" I question before I was able to stop myself. The thought of her being with someone else, let alone thinking about someone else like that killed me.

"One day..." She smiled up at me. Large, brown eyes staring into mine. Her lips pulled back into a smile. I was lost in her as the nurse walked in, quietly knocking on the already open door.