Our Little Secret (h.s.) // editing

"Ready?"

(Sorry, my computer has been acting up plus I have had a ton homework!!)

~Harry~

My hands began to shake once I hung up the phone. Janissa was on her way over after what felt like forever. I needed her here with me. I need to wrap my arms around that small body of hers without her pushing me away. I need to tell her I love her a millions times more. At this point, I don't even care if she says it back or not, I just need her to hear it.

I swear my heart stops beating when a knock is sounded from downstairs. My eyes quickly darted to the small white envelope that laid on my bed. I didn't open, because I wanted us to do that together. I want to show her that I can and am truthful with her.

My legs carry me to the front door before I can contemplate letting her stay out there any longer. Opening the door, I barley recognize the fragile body before me. Her skin is pale, and her eyes are swollen. I did this. I made this happen to her, but i'm sure I do not look much better.

"Hi." She whispers. I feel like I can't move. I want to wrap her in my arms, but I can't move.

"Hi." I manage to whisper back. My voice came out hoarse due to not having a reason to speak for the last week. I have stayed silent aside from the occasional conversation with Jess. Janissa held a small envelope in her hand as well. I nod my head, stepping to the side, and allowing her to enter. I kick the door behind her and follow her upstairs.

"I just want get this over with if we are being honest." She sends me a light smile, taking a seat in the chair next to the window. I clear my throat grabbing my envelope from the bed.

"Before we open them," I murmur, hoping she heard me. "I want you to know that nothing in this stupid thing is going to make me change how I feel about you, babe. Please know that. Even if you leave me, I need you to know that I love you." She began to speak, but I continue. "Even if you don't feel the same about me. I love you, and I need you." 

A huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulder. My eyes flutter closed waiting for her to tell me that I am crazy, that I am deluded. I waited for the hurtful things to come, but they didn't. Instead I felt a small pressure on my cheek. Her soft lips left the skin burning underneath them.

"Ready?" She whispered. I nod my head, and slowly slide my hand underneath the top, breaking the seal. She does the same, opening her results a lot faster than me. Her face drops as she takes a sharp intake. "They all came back negative." She smiled. A smile plays on my lips in relief for her. I begin  to open mine when Janissa takes it from my hands.

I gave her a confused look as she brings it to the desk, setting it down. She walks over to me, sitting down on the edge of the bed.

"What are you doing?"

"I don't need to know." She whispers. "You got tested for me, and that's enough." She smiled. That's great and all, but I needed to know if I was clean. She was right when she had me do this, it was smart of her. Chloe or not.

"Janissa, I-" I begin, but am silenced with her lips on mine. I couldn't help but smile into the kiss. I needed this. I've missed this. Not being able to kiss her, or hold her in six day, killed me. Couples go through this shit all the time, but it was hell. A living hell.

I swipe my tongue on her bottom lip, she let me in immediately. My tongue fought with her for dominance, and I easily won. I allowed myself to explore her mouth as she started to strattle me, rocking her hips back and forth. She has gotten really good at the whole 'turning me on' thing. All though it doesn't take much coming from her.