i am nothing
i am worth nothing
when do i plan my suicide
how will i do it
when
make up your mind tomcat
you already know the benefits and downfalls of your death
and you agreed you'll kill yourself
so why wont you do it.
they'll find somebody who deserves them more than you do, somebody who'll make them happy. somebody who is perfect for them.
you're nothing but a rag tomcat.
you always cry
you cant hold yourself together
people are starting to notice your shift in mood
your posture
everything
you lost your skill at hiding your emotion
smile would you
thats what you want to do when you die
smile
so people know you're happy to be dead
you already know how it feels
everyday, nothing but pounds of meat that think and move
then when you're dead you dont need to try anymore
smile
fancy up
you're going to die soon
so smile
let people think you're feeling better
and youre only feeling better
because you'll be dead
ISNT THAT WONDERFUL
YOU DONT NEED TO WORRY ANYMORE.
you already feel neglected by your dear by the few days they dont utter any words or make a move on their turn.
it makes your mind spiral out of control
and think that they dont care
anymore
maybe they dont
maybe all that attention was from pity
they didnt want to break you
now look where you
are
wasting the time they couldve used on somebody who deserved
it
i can see it
i can feel it
you want to hurt yourself again tomcat
that just how you are
you know it scares them
but you do it
you're so selfish
you cant stop hurting yourself
but i dont blame you
id hurt myself too if i didnt feel loved at all
id do it
you can do it now
make it deep
hey
maybe now you could die
ruin the atmosphere
and leave your suicide message
you'll break them
if they still care
maybe they wont read it
do it
youre only stopping yourself because you dont have the energy anymore
ill wait for you
the demon in your head tormenting you for the rest of your life
youll never feel a hug again
youll only feel it when somebody feels forced to
when they see you crying
nobody hugs you
nobody ever does
they hate you
i hate you
you dont deserve anything
nothing at all
you're nothing
you dont deserve to exist
YOU ARE READING
not your cup of tea (venting)
Randomtw : this will include depressing and suicidal themes as it is a vent book. occasionally i will share vent drawings that may cause some bad thoughts to you. a/n : i share this because im still hoping somebody will help me i cant breathe anymore. im...
