its gone silent
.i cant hear it.
i feel like my feelings have flatlined on the dark gridded monitor.
i ruined it all.
its all my fault and i cant fix it.
i cant fix myself
i cant even help fix them
im so fucking useless
i wish i had tooken all those chances of killing myself before.
the shooting range
the canyon
the car
but i didnt take them
i regret it all.
my chest feels so tight and heavy now.
i just.
have to wait for her to tell me this really is the end.
thats all i have to do.
just wait
im so gone from this world
i talk to myself because nobody is there
nobody
i hear my mind screaming to cut
my left fore arm aches
i want to
i cant
the bones feel like they're cracking
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Acaktw : this will include depressing and suicidal themes as it is a vent book. occasionally i will share vent drawings that may cause some bad thoughts to you. a/n : i share this because im still hoping somebody will help me i cant breathe anymore. im...
