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10 - YOU

10 - YOU

Felix had uploaded a video. You had just gotten the notification. It was a gaming video! 

He was playing a horror game and you loved how scared he got whenever there was a jump scare. His deep voice made it even funnier to watch because he liked to scream like a girl. 

You watched him in awe. Felix was just the cutest human on earth. His blonde hair was getting darker at the roots and it looked a bit messy, a look you really liked on him. He also looked so cozy in his big sweater and with his headphones on. 

The way he looked at the camera from time to time, the way he played with his voice, making it higher or deeper sometimes, how he looked when he was concentrating, you loved it all.

Someone might call it impossible, weird, to fall in love with a youtuber, someone you've never met. Most people would not and could not and most importantly would not want to understand. 

At the same time, falling in love over the internet meant falling in love with a person, not a body, so it might just be a more pure form of love. Because usually when two people meet they need to be attracted to each other before getting to know each other. Thus, the appearance of a person was sadly more important than their personality most of the time. 
Channie must have liked something about your face or body, if he didn't, he wouldn't have wanted to get to know you.

On the internet you had to get to know each other, like each other, before you would see or meet each other. That meant that you would fall in love with a person before you could decide if their outer appearance was fitting your preference. 
Fe didn't even know how you looked like and talked to you, got to know you, liked you for the person you were. That he apparently also liked your face was just a coincidence. 

Of course, meeting on the internet meant that you could be catfished. Instagram, as example, is a nice place to meet people, but you can never know who is behind that little fan account. 

Also, deep down you knew that you couldn't fall for Channie as long as you loved Felix. It may be stupid to love him because it was a one sided love but the heart wants what it wants. You couldn't change that. 

With every video, every word he spoke, Felix wanted to made sure your heart stayed with him, made sure it wouldn't leave but didn't notice that part of it had already left him. You yourself didn't even notice that. You only knew that going to school was hell since you couldn't text Fe.

He had been a little off lately. 

Responded slower and shorter. You were a little worried.

felixsqueen: hey are you okay? just came home from school, how was your day?

king-of-dabbing: good

You felt a little sting in your heart.

felixsqueen: are you mad at me or something? :(

king-of-dabbing: no

felixsqueen: you can tell me if something I'm doing is bothering you

felixsqueen: or if I'm annoying you... 

felixsqueen: just be honest with me

king-of-dabbing: you're not annoying xD

felixsqueen: but I feel like I'm annoying you

felixsqueen: we've been texting for a little more than a month now, I notice that kind of stuff, I'm a sensible person, you know that (laughing emoji)