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24 - YOU

24 - YOU

You were glad vacation had started because you didn't have to go to school in that mental state. But it also led to you just laying in your bed, crying.

Because you weren't comfortable telling your mom about falling in love with some guy on the internet you just told her that some jealous fans had made some mean comments. It was reasonable as someone had filmed you and him interacting and it had kinda blown up on twitter. Many comments were nice but, as expected, there were also a lot of negative ones. 

Yes, you had downloaded the video. It seemed to be the only proof that all of this had really happened and it was the only thing that could cheer you up. 

You had blocked Fe and his friend on Snapchat, too hurt to talk. 

"Hey Channie. Are you free today?"
needing some distraction you texted Channie. 

He, of course, replied really fast.

Even though he didn't know you that well he felt that something was wrong and told you he'd pick you up in thirty minutes.

Quickly you showered, trying to force yourself to stop crying and dressed yourself decently. You also tried to hide your eyebags with some concealer but couldn't do more than that as he was already ringing your doorbell.

Before leaving you told your mom you'd be with Channie and she was happy about it because she thought he seemed like a nice guy and let you go.

Outside, Channie looked at you worriedly and the ride to his house went silently.

His parents weren't home again and he quietly led you to his room where you sat down on his bed. Channie then left and came back with some tea because he knew you liked it.

"Wanna tell me why you're so upset?"
he asked, shooting closer.

You sipped a little on you tea and when you opened your mouth to talk he gently took your cup and put it on his table. Then he sat down next to you again. Keeping your eyes open hurt because they were sore from crying.

The words just wouldn't come out and when he put his fingers on your chin, tilting his head towards you, he frowned. His touch burned on your skin and you looked him in the eyes. They were full of worry and confusion.

"Whoever hurt you... I'll kill them... I really will..."

Then he hugged you and you couldn't stop yourself from crying anymore. You felt secure in his arms and he petted your hair, trying to calm you down. Your tears made his shirt wet but he didn't care, holding you close, wanting to protect you.

For a while you just sat there, being hugged by him, crying. It felt good to have someone who actually seemed to care. To have someone who would hug you like that when you were feeling like your heart had been shattered into pieces. 

After you stopped crying he gently moved a way from you, put his hands on your cheeks only to remove them again and take your hands into his.

"Still not wanting to talk about it?"

Biting your lip, with a puffy face, you touched the ring on your ringfinger and thought about a way to start.

Every word you said, he listened, holding your hands. It felt awkward explaining what happened and you were embarrassed to admit having fallen in love with someone over the internet.

"Maybe you just mistook him for someone else..."
he told you after you finished, hiding his jealousy.

"I don't think so..."
you trailed off, feeling the tears coming again. Thinking about it, you started to feel actual pain again, in your chest, it just hurt. Hurt so much. You yourself couldn't explain why you were so heartbroken about this, but also most of the time, you only realize how much you love someone when you lose them.