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20 - YOU

20 - YOU

It was a day before the fanmeeting. Today was Saturday again and you had carefully put the bunny plushie in the bag you would take to the fanmeeting, while you put the ring on your thumb (it was too big for the other fingers). 

The fanmeeting would start at 2 o'clock and you had to plan in about one hour to get to the place where it would be held. Also you would need an hour to shower and style your hair and another hour to dress and do your makeup. Add an hour to not have a rushed breakfast and you needed to get up at 11am at least!

Playing it safe you would wake up at 8 because you would probably need a few hours to calm yourself and you'd rather have too much time than not enough.

At the moment you were sitting at your desk, a paper in front of you and a pencil in your hand. You had decided to follow Fes advice and write a letter to Felix. 

Somehow you didn't know what to write. You had too many thoughts and were too afraid of the letter being cringy, which frustrated you. 

"Dear Felix Lee,"
you wrote and put in effort to make your handwriting look good. It was a letter to Felix after all.

"honestly I don't know what to say. I hope you won't cringe too much at this."
In thoughts you bit your pencil.

"I've been supporting your channel for a very long time and I just have to say 'thank you'. Your videos always make my day and are always something I can look forward to. When I'm sad or upset watching your content gives me joy and hope. You are a wonderful person, in and out. Not only are you funny, nice, hardworking, modest and sweet but on top of that incredibly talented. Please never change!

But not only does your content bring me happiness but through you I have found friends online. One in particular I am really close to and I think I may be starting to have feelings for him. But I met him because of you. So I am thankful. Like a lot.

Also you've hit one million subscribers!!! I couldn't be more proud, I feel like a mom somehow haha. I remember when you used to say that if we would hit 5k subs you would show us your rapping. You actually did. For like 5 seconds. On a live stream. I really wanted to hit you back then, why are you so savage?

But I love it. I think, even though that might be weird, that I can even say that I love you. Even if I don't know you personally.

When we met at that day in the mall I think I died like several times. Please don't ever do that to me again I think I had a heartattack! And why are you so handsome? How do you do it? What did you eat to become so handsome? I don't understand it... is it like a korean thing? The fan who's my friend now, that I met because of you also seems to be korean (judging from one picture but yeah...) and he looks stunning as well. HOW?

Also I think your and Changbins friendship is the most adorable thing in the world! I know your other best friend doesn't want to be on camera, but from what I heard (when he was talking in the background) he also seems like a fun, bubbly person. I think your friends really love you and even though, as you said, they are busy sometimes, they will always support you. I too will always support you.

Seeing you with Changbin just makes me incredible happy because you just deserve all the love he gives you. I'm not talking about the other friend that much because I don't even know his name or face but he must be amazing as well!!!

To be honest I still can't believe that I met you. You were so kind. Just thank you. And I'm still so shook because you really posted our selfie! I'm really thankful but can't wrap my head around why you would do that. But I'm thankful. Thank you.