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25 - YOU

25 - YOU

The next morning you woke up pretty late and went into the kitchen to make yourself breakfast. Being afraid that Fe would text you, saying he wanted to meet up later or earlier you brought your phone with you and put it on the table, unlocked.

You were about to put toast in the toaster and vegemite, butter, a plate and a knife on the table when your mother came in.

"Good morning."
you told her and turned around to see her looking at your phone.

"Who is king-of-dabbing?"
she asked, probably seeing that you had chatted with him.

"A... a friend from school."
you lied, walking towards her and she frowned.

"And you want to meet up with him at 3?"

you gulped.

"If he's a friend from school, explain this:"
she turned around your phone and you didn't need much time to read. It was the part where Fe admitted to lying about the guy in the picture being him.

"Mom... I'm-"

"Y/n what the heck? I thought I could trust you? So you were really going to meet up with a stranger you met on the internet without even telling me?!"

"And no- don't say a word now! That guy is probably some old pedophile! I can't believe you would even do this! It also explains why you were off the last few days! Do you even know how dangerous it would have been? What if he had kidnapped you? I never would have known where you'd be? How can you be so naive?!"
she spoke calmly but you could hear her anger and flinched.

"Mom I promise you, he's not an old man-"

"How do you know that? You will definitely NOT meet up with him!"

"Mom please-"
again, you were crying. Why right now, why didn't you lock your phone?

"YOU WILL DELETE THAT INSTAGRAM ACCOUND YOUNG LADY! AND I WILL FROM NOW ON CHECK YOUR PHONE! I THOUGHT I COULD TRUST YOU TO NOT PUT YOURSELF IN DANGER LIKE THAT! AND NOW GO INTO YOUR ROOM YOU ARE GROUNDED!"

Since your Mom rarely yelled at you, you were shocked and went into your room, your vision blurry from all the tears. She had kept your phone and all you could do was lay in your bed and cry. Cry, cry and cry, for hours. 

The clock in your room made all of this worse, it was almost 3pm. 

You just couldn't stop crying, your pillow was already wet and you didn't know what to do anymore. 

At around five your mother came into your room, telling you she had deleted your account and the app itself, telling you she had also found this 'Fe' on your snapchat and therefore also deinstalled that app as well.

You knew she was just afraid for you, but still, you couldn't help it but hate her for doing this so you didn't reply and fell asleep.

For dinner your mother had cooked something but you weren't hungry and not eating anything, silent tears running down your cheeks and your heart hurting as if you had been stabbed. 

After being forced to eat at least a little bit you disappeared into your room again.

You replayed the video of you meeting Felix at the fanmeeting again and again but then stopped because your tears blocked your vision, making you unable to see anything.

If your heart had been ripped in two pieces because of being ignored it was now ripped into a hundred pieces. Broken into many little shards of glass, so many, you couldn't find a way to tape them together anymore.

Maybe it had been your own fault. 

Maybe you should have just not fallen in love with a guy who you didn't even really know.

But sometimes it just happens, happens too fast to change it, too fast to prevent it from happening.

Also, you were shocked at how much love actually did hurt.

You felt unable to breath. Your chest felt like it was pressed together, making it impossible for your lungs to be filled with air. 

"So?"
Suddenly your phone rang and you saw that Channie had texted you. For a few minutes you didn't reply, being busy with calming yourself down, at least a little.

"My mother found out. She deleted my instagram. I really wish I could die right now. He probably thinks I stood him up..."
you replied, shaking, hurting and still sobbing.

"Oh shit."

"What's his user again?"

"king-of-dabbing... why?"

"Idk... just wanted to know. Can I come over tmr?"

"I'm grounded..."

"Oh... shit... I'm so sorry sweetie (heart). We'll fix this, I promise you, okay?"
and he sent another one
"Please don't do anything stupid and just call me if you need to talk okay?"

"Thank you so much, I really love you"
crying again you pressed 'send'.

"Thanks, I love you too, but in a way that you probably didn't mean. Call me if something happens okay?"

"I will."

That night you would probably cry yourself to sleep again. Now that your Instagram account was deleted and you didn't have Snapchat anymore, there was no way to reach Fe anymore. 

Maybe it was for the best. Maybe your mother was right, maybe he was an old, creepy man, trying to harm you.

But your heart said something different. Deep inside you knew, that he was not an old man. Deep inside you knew, you had fallen in love with him and that he at least liked you too.

And even deeper inside, you knew who he really was, but you didn't want to believe what was in front of your eyes, being scared of it not being true and then being disappointed. 

You looked at the ring on your ringfinger. Even in the darkness it seemed to shine a little bit and give you hope.

Thinking of how Felix smiled at you, how he held your hand and how he cupped your face with his' you smiled a bit and finally fell asleep. 

Love always finds its way. But you were yet to realize that.

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I know y'all will be so angry with me omg... please don't kill me <3<3

Thank you for 35k reads and almost 700 comments on that one chapter... I'm like... shook... really. 

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(Also, not really related to the story but... I'm actually missing a person I've been in contact with and it makes me really sad atm... I just don't know like... he left me on read the last time... I know he's like very busy with work and stuff but it just hurts and I want to tell him I miss him but that'd be so weird... ah... )

I hope you all have a nice New Years Eve and eat lots of delicious food and have a nice night with the people you love. Let us love ourselves and other people more in the coming years and don't forget to stan talent... oops... I mean... stray kids ;P