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1 Week Later | Fergal's POV

"Cmon Pam. Please wake up baby. I know you don't wanna be alive but I need you. I'll help you through whatever pain you're going through. Please just wake up."

I sobbed as I held her limp hand close to my face.

"I love you so much Pamela Rose Martinez. I'm sorry for all the times I've caused you pain. If you just wake up I'll be the best boyfriend ever. I'll propose. I'll treat you like the princess you are. I just need you so fucking bad."

I pleaded to her. The doctors were telling me that I should probably decide to pull the plug on her. But I don't know if I have the heart to do it. I at least wanted the kids to come say goodbye to her, even Aria. Aria's college was only an hour away so she's coming down tonight to be with her siblings and I.

"Pam, please. Aria is gonna be here. You know you wanna see her. C'mon, love."

I said as I kissed her hand. Nothing.

"Pamela, I know you're fucking stubborn but I'm begging you! Do not give up! Do not leave me!"

I sobbed into her hand. I needed her in my life. I needed to hold her in my arms again. I needed to see her big, beautiful smile. I needed her. But she's slipping so far away that I might never get to see her alive ever again...