FAILURE
I'm scared to whisper the words,
Petrified of what others would think,
If they found out what I hold in,
They'd leave me as fast as a blink
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I sink,
Deeper in forced happiness,
It hurts too much to smile,
Because you keep saying I'm beautiful,
While I swallow down the bile.
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A pile,
Of shit is how I feel,
I'm not good enough,
I cry at night just to get some sleep,
A confident idiot is my bluff.
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So stuff,
Every nice thought you had of me,
In the darkest corner of your mind,
See me for the nothing I am,
Not someone sweet or kind.
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Can't find,
A reason to reach out anymore,
I can't get out of my head,
I hurt others and make the worry,
About the mess I made but I'll lay in my bed.
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Instead,
Should I leave you all in peace,
Your world spun before me so it will after,
Don't pretend to need me please,
You deserve a friend filled with laughter.
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No rafter,
Can hold up the roof that's crumbling down,
My shelter pitched around my heart isn't stable,
I'm sorry I couldn't be better like before,
I'm stupid and just not capable.
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I can't stand it anymore.
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*sighs* um...yeah..
