Opposites ~ n.h (rewriting)

Prologue (RW)

Dear Luna,

I know you'd prefer me giving you a simple 'hi love' because that is much more like the both of us than the official business.

I know this is not what you wanted nor what you expected, I can't explain how sorry I am but there is simply. I'm not worthy of your attention, time, love or even your look. I know you're prostesting, rolling your eyes back. I know you're in tears, probably ruining this paper in the process. I know all of this, because I know you. And I can honestly telll you that getting to know you was the very very best thing that has ever happened to me. I thought I had lost my battle but instead, you kept me up, you fought with me.

I'm sorry it wasn't enough. I'm sorry that all that you have done for me has gone to waste. I'm sorry for even being in your life. I'm sorry for hurting you so much right now while all I want is to make you smile.

I wrote you a song. The melody is yours to make up but the words are mine to you. This is all I can give you that is somewhat worthy of closure. I've been working on it for months and I made sure that I could at least give you this before saying goodbye. It's called 'Little Things'.

Your hand fits in mine like it's made just for me

But bear this mind it was meant to be

And I'm joining up the dots with the freckles on your cheeks

And it all makes sense to me

I know you've never loved the crinkles by your eyes when you smile

You've never loved your stomach or your thighs

The dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine

But I'll love them endlessly

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth

But if I do, it's you, oh it's you, they add up to

I'm in love with you and all these little things

You can't go to bed without a cup of tea

Maybe that's the reason that you talk in your sleep

And all those conversations are the secrets that I keep

Though it makes no sense to me

I know you've never loved the sound of your voice on tape

You never want to know how much you weigh

You still have to squeeze into your jeans

But you're perfect to me

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth

But if it's true, it's you, it's you, they add up to

I'm in love with you and all these little things

You never love yourself half as much as I love you

You'll never treat yourself right darling but I want you to

If I let you know, I'm here for you

Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you oh

I've just let these little things slip out of my mouth

Because it's you, oh it's you, it's you they add up to

And I'm in love with you (all these little things)

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth

But if it's true, it's you, it's you they add up to

I'm in love with you, and all your little things

What I want you to realise is that you are my muse, Luna, you are everything. I've written so many songs about you but I just never got round telling you. I was afraid it would scare you, that my feelings were too strong, or that you just simply wouldn't like them. I've left them all, though, for you to read one day. You'll find them scattered around my flat, in books, in drawers, nowhere and everything. They will randomly show up while cleaning up, waiting for you to read them. It's time I show you what I feel for you.

I'm sorry again.

I vow to watch over you and my Elizabeth, I will protect your loved ones and I vow to finally let go and be happy. Thank you for showing me what that is even if I didn't manage to. I thank you for giving me a lifetime worth of happiness in such a short period of time. I thank you for all the times you did not judge me, for taking me just as I am .

I love you.

Forever yours,

Niall.  

Hiiiiii, here I am again, first rewritten chapter of the new version of this book. I am saving the old one still though, I have it in my Google Drive ;) I hope you like this. I'm going to organise everything properly and make sure the story makes more sense. 

Every chapter that has been rewritten will have the letters RW behind them which (obviously) stands for rewritten. 

Love you xox