Love...in Time

Chapter 15 - Broken Wing

Pakpak

 

Pakpak

 

Pakpak

Sue tossed and turned again and again on her bed.

“Aaaaaaarrrrrggghhh!” She exclaimed in frustration.

Sue has been trying to sleep since today was a rest day for her from all the taping and shows and chaos of showbusiness. However, the same word keeps repeating in her head. She sat up on her bed and rumpled her hair as if that would make her fall asleep. Finally she gave up and just sat on her bed thinking.

“Ano ba Sue? Bakit mo ba kasi iniisip ung mga bagay na yon?” Sue asked herself. “Ano ba kasi talaga ang nararamdaman mo?”

As she just sat there, memories began to flood her mind.

“You don’t understand. Sue, wala naman kulang sa pagmamahal mo. Nagpapasalamat ako at minahal mo ko ng sobra sobra. Ang sinasabi ko sa yo, kailangan mong matuto mag desisyon ng sarili mo. Learn to be independent. You have to live for yourself, not for anybody else, not even me. Be brave. Be strong. Nasa edad na tayo Sue. We have to learn how to be independent. Naiintindihan mo ba yon?”

 

Jeremy was trying his best to explain to Sue what was going on. He still loves her, as his friend. They have been through so much together but he knew that she has to learn to live on her own, make her own decisions. She has to grow up. He doesn’t like seeing her cry but he knows she’s in pain. He’s in pain too. The end of their relationship doesn’t mean the end of their friendship. He hopes that she understands.

 

“Naiintindihan ko na. Alam ko na umasa ako sa yo. Ung mundo ko umikot lang sa yo. Pero masakit Jeremy eh. Mahal na mahal kita. Hindi ko kaya kung wala ka. Nasanay ako na andyan ka palagi. Baka naman pwede natin ayusin to.” Sue was pleading to Jeremy. She doesn’t know how to live without him.

 

“Hindi naman kita iiwan. Magkaibigan pa rin tayo. Ayoko din mawala ka ng tuluyan sa buhay ko. But I can’t be your boyfriend anymore. I don’t love you that way anymore. I am really sorry for hurting you. That I am hurting you. But I think this is the best, for both of us. Basta lagi mo lang tatandaan, andito ko for you when you need me. I will always be your friend Sue, always.”

Sue sighed as she remembered that painful night. Then her thoughts were replaced by a new memory.

“Sa pagkakakilala mo kay Sue,” Kris said during her show aired December 20, “and you now nagkakilala kayo nung…that she…I feel so protective of her kasi for me I saw her at her most wounded, when she was heartbroken, yun parang ano talaga ibon na naputulan ng isang pakpak tapos ung parang learning lang to slowly fly again, but you know yung parang sa yo ko sya nakita ngayon na ngumingiti na ulit and that’s so major for me and you just don’t know how much I was praying for the success of My Binondo Girl because I wanted her talaga to be able to stand up na not as part of as a, a love team but to be Sue, because I love her so much, so be good to her, naiiyak na naman ako, dahil mahal na mahal ko talaga yon, so alagaan mo ha.”