bitter lies » hunlay [COMPLETED SEQUEL]

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sehun;

the nurses brought me to a special room, the walls are painted in white, the floor is white, everything is white in sight. they forcefully sat me down on the chair in the middle of the room. my eyes were hooded from the brightness of the room.

the nurses let go of me when someone in his 40's opened the door and politely smiled. the nurses left him and i alone in this room and locked the door. the guy fixed his old fashioned brown blazer and put all his stacked up documents on the table inbetween us.

"who are you?" i asked. "a-are you real?" i pinched myself silently.

"hello, oh sehun. nice to meet you." he held out his hand for me to shake. "im your personal psychiatrist, and im real." he smiled pitifully.

"how can i believe if you're real or not? i don't know what's real and what's not anymore..." i gritted my teeth. "people will say im hallucinating eitherway."

he flipped through my document and read some of my problems the doctor wrote. "oh sehun, you can only hallucinate one person. and i believe he's your..." he took a glance at me. "ex boyfriend, yixing."

"i can't hallucinate anything else other than him?" i blinked.

"i believe so. your hallucination is something...special. and it's pretty challenging to get rid of it. im sorry to say this but im here to help you." he said.

i looked at him in disbelief, starting to believe that im hopeless. "i-it's...incurable?" i clenched my fists.

"i didn't say that." he coughed. "it is curable, sehun. don't worry too much."

"how can i know if someday yixing is real or not? i can't tell the fucking difference...they feel the same." i gulped.

"well, that's what we've been trying to figure out, oh sehun." he smiled at me pitifully. "for now, i don't have the solution to tell you."

"what is happening to me?" i muttered. "am i going crazy?"

the psychiatrist stopped analyzing my document and looked at me for a while. that look on his face tells me that something isn't right.

"am i?" i clenched my jaw. "answer me!" i raised my voice.

"no...you're not." he said.

"you're lying." i chuckled unwillingly.

"sehun, it can only happen if the hallucination takes over you, and make you believe everything." he worried. "he will try to make you do bad things, like killing yourself. that is why you're prohibited at believing he's real."

"don't say 'he'! it's not the real yixing!" i groaned. "you're making it sound like it's really him."

"okay, sehun. calm down."

"im hopeless, aren't i?"

"you're not hopeless. we're still trying to find a way." he patted my shoulder.

"there is no way." i furrowed my brows. "im going crazy and there's no cure to mental illness." i growled.

"it can be cured but it takes time." he said. "i am eager to help you."

"you don't want to help a monster like me." i rasped and stood up from the seat. "the only cure is yixing."

i tried to leave the white room but the two male nurses held me back from leaving the room. "let go of me!" i yelled.

"let him go. it's okay." the psychiatrist nodded at the nurses. their grasp loosened and slowly letting go of me. i groaned at the nurses and left the room angrily.