𝑺𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒓-𝒊𝒏-𝑳𝒂𝒘

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natsu dragneel

i came home, my face and body drained of energy and emotion. i immediately went up to my room, ignoring my mom as she called me for dinner.

i locked my room's door as soon as i closed it, showered and changed into basketball shorts and a black tee.

i laid on my bed, disregarding the fact that my pillow was going to be damp when i sleep later.

unknowingly, tears fell as i thought about lucy.

"huh? why am i crying?" i said aloud, wiping the tears on my face that were still flowing down.

"why am i so affected? we're just friends."

my heart ached once i said, friends.

it seemed like i wanted to be more than that. but we couldn't.

she already had someone else.

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i came to school the next day late, even though my brother was there an hour before me.

i walked in the classroom, getting all the attention.

"mr. dragneel. you will have to get detention later-"

"okay."

i walked slowly to my seat, seeing lucy staring me, her face showing worry.

my heart fluttered when i saw her, but remembering what i saw yesterday, my smile fell.

i sat down on my seat, but my hood on and slept.

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it was lunch and i bought 'food' at a vending machine.

returning to the classroom, i saw lucy once again, alone.

i opened the door quietly and stayed in the front seat, four rows away from her. i opened the packet and ate what ever was inside and drank my water.

"hi natsu!" she exclaimed, tapping ny back.

i turned and mutter a low, "hi."

"you seem down, what happened?" she asked, seeming worried.

"none of your business." i replied before turning my back to her and putting my earpods in.

she left after a while and went out.

i sighed and made my music assignment due this afternoon.

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after classes were done, lucy, once again, came to me and asked, "natsu, what's wrong?"

i ignored her before stomping out into the busy hallways, rushing to get back home.

once i step foot outside the campus, someone grabbed my wrist.

"hey! i'm just asking if you were okay! there's no need to fucking ignore me. i thought we were friends!" she exclaimed, gaining everyone's attention.

"are they fighting?"

"love quarrel?"

"isn't that girl the girlfriend of brian?"

mutter from different students were heard all around them.

"keyword. you thought. bye." i said, before yanking my hand away and running home.

tears were streaming down my face as soon as i reached my bedroom. i went to the bathroom and took a really long shower.

i regained my thoughts after the shower and decided to break my very short friendship with lucy. i didn't want to get hurt even more.

i took out my books, telling myself to focus and study but my minds always drifted back to lucy. i sighed and put away my book and went on my social media.

i read through my friends' posts for about half an hour before being called down for dinner.

i texted ny brother to tell my mom i didn't want to eat and five minutes later, there was a knock on my door.

"natsu? are you okay? i'm going to leave some food outside your door if you're ever hungry." my mom said, worried for me.

i replied with a low, 'thanks' before waiting for her to leave before getting the food.

i ate silently while my speakers boomed melodic music. it reminded me of her.

i set aside the plate and wanted to sleep, but i couldn't. she was always on my mind.

tears fell from my eyes, unknowingly.

i covered my face with my pillow, trying to dry ny tears with it.

i thought, "why am i like this?"

i sat up and thought about it.

"do i possibly like her?"

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