Always Silent

Chapter 15

Time for surprises, and bringing up a girl's self-esteem.

Chapter 15

For the past month I started my apprenticeship with the garage, I'm not pregnant, Nik and I haven't had sex since our first time. He was suspended from school, a week for the incident with Chris and he made me stay home and do some study online so whatever was in that note had an everlasting effect on him. I sigh watching as the car made its way into the garage, Nik came out with his glasses firmly over his perfect face; his black hair had grown shaggier and is now down the side of his neck, his yellow eyes have matured a tiny bit and are not as powerful and intimidating as they once were.

"Okay Jim, I'm off!" I yelled making my way to Nik who pulled me against him and kissed my forehead, I soak it up, I'm not going to see him for the next two days, he made me a large dinner last night and told me-handed me a note that he was going to be away for the weekend.

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Nik has been gone for a day and half and so far I've completed my history project about Eleanor Roosevelt, an ice cream tub, and CSI season; the one filmed in New York. I haven't put much thought into travelling since I love my home, but if I were to go a place I'm not sure if I'd survive the rush of things in that city...

I walked into the supermarket needing to eat my feelings because there is too damn much of them!

Pushing the trolley off the isles I hold my wallet, somehow Nik hacked into my account and transacted money into it, I wanted to explode, grab something, I'm sick of this. But I know Nik is only trying to help, even though technically we're a couple I feel like a stranger, like all we do is pose for a camera, then we separate come home, share small kisses and nothing else. I was thinking about getting, umm condoms. And maybe with a little awkward seduction we can do something other than me talking, him listening, and writing back on a notepad, it's a little disappointing. Don't get me wrong it's helpful but I feel like we're friends. We sleep in the same bed sometimes, if Nik isn't busy he'll take me to his room but if he's up and on his computer than he'll leave me be...

Nik gives me freedom to see Maxwell but no repeats of my twelve curfews and I've been using that to my advantage to control my festered emotions I feel for Nik. I guess I've never had someone who puts so much attention on me; I feel like I've been separated from people, and when it comes to Nik, I like it. I like someone who hasn't talked to me...

"Excuse me, but can you hand me the jam?" I turn to see a lady with a child on her hip and by the looks of her stomach child number two is currently being held by its momma. I nod grabbing it and putting it in her trolley.

She smiles and then suddenly she lets out a painful moan. I catch her falling shoulders.

"Are you alright?" I quiz softly as the child began to cry hysterically.

"Yeah just some pains, the baby's a kicker, can you hold him for me?" without waiting for an answer she handed her son to me, quickly taking the child into my arms I rock him back and forth, something I had learnt in practice for Maxwell who tended to have a lot of growing pains and wake us all up with his painful cries.

The child begins to lower his tone and softly dissipate into small whimpers; I tried not to "aww", acting like some sort of freak. A child, so precious and yet my hands are touching him, holding in my balled emotions I turn up to see the lady with a hand on her belly slowly rubbing the enlarged womb trying to rid of pain.

"Are you alright Ms?" I adjust the child onto one arm reaching out to grab the extra weight of her purse from her shoulder dumping it in her trolley before moving back to the old position.