I N H U M A N E

Chapter 2

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Stella Ryana's POV

A big day. Yes it is! Today is the day. The day I waited for almost four months. Four months blankly staring at the wall. It is a long time for me to think about my deep thoughts. It was not easy to bear child while there is no someone you can lean on and still you have to 0ass through it because a life is depending you.

One week after gaining my conscious I was transferred to a private room. A hospital room filled with silence. Cabled TV, sofa, cabinet and complete set comfort room I can use. And in a single square room where I can only find myself thinking of nothing. Thou it was frustrating I still managed to keep my self alive from the isolated room. Eating healthy meals served by the hopital caterers, following recommendation from a physician, taking supplements and vitamins for the well being of baby is my daily routine, a daily routine for how many months

To keep my self entertained I watched television series to keep my mood up despite of what happened. There is a whole week I've been staring at the door waiting for someone. I waited for my husband, Jason Haravejo but he's dead already and with that thought made my heart clenched in sadness, still I have my in-laws, and others who had concerns in me. But I think I wasted my time for waiting for someone who will hug me and thanking God for making me alive. But no one entered that door aside from the doctors, nurses, janitors who are assigned in this room. That made me feel neglected and unloved by someone who I dont know yet I'm expecting for.

I questioned myself the other day for waiting someone. Someone I do not know. It happens that it come in my mind waiting for a person. Yet still it made me disappointed. It made me cried for days resulting for the doctor to use calming medicines. I calmed but I still I longed and yearned for someone in my thought that I do not know if it is real or just an imagination but the emotion seemed to be real and uncontrollable. Thinking of that someone made my heart fired with desire and lust.

But the obe-gnyecologist said that it might be cause by pregnancy hormones where myself seek for someone I forgot to depend on. I had cravings. I ate unusual food such as strawberry dipped in sweet soy sauce. Gladly the catering in the hospital provided foods for my cravings. I take my pregnancy vitamins daily for free by the hospital administration.

Thanks to God that I made to managed and adapt the new environment. I do no have choices left but to bore this child, thanks the hospital board for their generousity, and fight with my struggles. I sighed after thinking what will happen after.

"Ahhhhhhhhh!" I screamed like there is no tomorrow when I felt an intolerable pain in my womb. I pushed the button of the intercom and asked for the nurses.

"Ahhhh nurse I think I'm going to give birth now!!!!" Tears dwelled in my cheeks thinking of my helpless state. In a few second a bundle of nurse arrived in my room. Pushing the stretcher as fast as they could reach the side of my bed. In no mean time I was wheeled to the emergency room by the nurses who calmly attended me.

After a countless of white double door opened towards the path to emergency room and now I am in a room filled with stainless, sterelized, and sharp objects.

"The patient is not yet ready to give birth Doc. It is still 4cm and yet not improving" I was splashed with cold water when I knew that I can not have a normal delivery.

"We need to get the baby out before it gets poisoned and suffocated inside the uterus" The doctor stated that made me nervous. I should let my baby live no matter what happens.

"Doc please help my baby" I said in a hopeful tone.

"We'll do everything Ms. Jaravejo. You will have a cesarean procedure. And we will make sure the baby will be out in no mean time healthy and strong"

After a while everything is set and they injected the anesthesia that made me drift to sleep but I want to see my baby and still I can not forcefully make my eyes wide open for a minute. And everything is black.

I woke up with a tolerable sore in my abdomen. This must the surgery cut caused by cesarean procedure. The first thing I noticed is that my baby bump was already gone. Excitement filled mind with the thought of a fragile little baby swung with the rhythmic movement of my hands. I was alarmed for a moment when I discovered that my baby is not in room. I was to obtuse at that time that made me startled when I heard the clicking sound of the door.

And it was a nurse coming near by me with a baby in her arms. The moment I met my baby's eyes everything to me was to genuine, a genuine happiness. A lone tear escaped from my eyes. There it is my little warrior, guardian, and my lone light in this dark world. My baby.

"Good morning Ma'am Jaravejo here is your cute little boy. His so handsome ma'am for sure he will make tons of girls cry and seek for his attention" The nurse giggled. It is visible that she adored my cute baby boy.

I just smiled at him and divert my attention to my baby. He looks so fragile. And it is indeed true, my baby is so handsome with his white shade skin, pointed nose and pair of hazel brown eyes. Everything of him was so perfect and lovely. I caress his soft reddish cheek with my index finger. Feeling his cute little love for me. He stretched out his arm and went to my index finger. I felt my whole world stop. I could feel how my heart leap. I am a mother now. God knows. It is a fulfiling happiness.

"Have you already decided for his name ma'am Jaravejo?" The nurse asked my excitedly.

I already planned for the baby's name. It helped myself to be busy for a long month and his name is lovely and something important for me. I can remember saying this name how many time. I can visualize my mouth mouthed this name. It might be psrt of my forgotten memories but it seems to be I am happy stating this name. I just naturally love it.

"Pilo Rios Jaravejo" Lovely. The nurse started to fill-up Pilo's birth certificate. From his name, his birthday which is December 19, 2013. His mother and father, Jason Jarevejo and every details about him were listed. The nurse smiled to me after taking the information and then smiled to Pilo who was busy with his adorable actions.

I smiled to the nurse and stared to Pilo. You are going to be Pilo. I love you to much Pilo. From now on my world will revolve with you. I can make my life again with you Pilo. Even I have a huge incapabilities I will protect you whatever happens. I must die first before someone dares to touch you with bad deeds. I am going to be your mama. Mama who will loves you so much, who will do everything for your happiness, who will keep you away you from harm and a mama who will sacrifice everything just to be considered as 'Pilo's Best Mama in the World'. I love you so much...

Pilo Rios Jaravejo

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