I N H U M A N E

Chapter 14

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Stella Ryana's POV

I have seem the child's face he was really adorable but everytime I get near him my heart jolted it was unexplainable. Tears filled my eyes for unidentified reason. The boy's face was familiar to me. The wavy brown hair, hazel brown eyes, pointed nose everything was familiar. I was trying to recognize where I have seen this kid when Alexander called him.

"Pilo come here." I was taken back. What did he called to the child? Pilo?  The same as the name of my baby almost nine years ago.

"Daddy!" Pilo shouted in enthusiasm and joy. Daddy? Does Alexander had wife? Suddenly I felt stang in my heart th the thought of Alexander was married and had kids while I was the only intruder and family wrecker.

"Who is she Daddy? Are you going to leave Mommy Cass for her"  He asked out from child's curiousity.

But Alexander did not answered his question that made Pilo cried and his eyes released fresh and huge tears.

"Don't leave Mommy Cass Daddy please" Pilo said that made Alexander nod and smiles.

Pilo stood infront of me with his arms crossed on his chest and a tiny glsring eyes darted on me. "I don't want my soon to be mommy is a prostitute."
I was shattered in to pieces. The child never lie. I was just a prostitute. A family crasher. I felt low on myself those words come out from the mouth of an innocent child who wants a complete family. Waterfalls of tears were streaming down on my cheeks. I was a slut to child's eye.

"PILO! COME HERE!" The boy turned his direction towards Alexander with fears visible in his small eyes and terror that made his fragile bone shaked.

"WHERE DID YOU LEARN TO SPEAK LIKE THAT!?" Alexander was furious and I was confused what is the reason if he was angry because I was called prostitute by a child or he was angry at Pilo's unrespectful langguage.

"Daddy Mommy Cass said that you were going to leave her and marry that woman she called slut." He was crying his reasons out.

"How many times I told you not to insulting someone. Stop calling her names or else I will cut your tongue." Alexander warned his son.

Until a woman's voice shouted. "XANDER STOP THAT HE WAS JUST 8 YEARS OLD." A woman in mid-fifties said. Her eyes were the same at Alexander's eyes and the skin complexion. Elegance and monegmy were screaming from herself.She might be Alexander's mother.

"Good evening Ma'm." I greeted the lady who seem to be Alexander's mom. I as about to grab her hand and bless as a sign of respect when she forcefully grabbed her hands away from me slapped my face.

"How dare you woman return in our lives? Does your old men ran out of jewelries, money or luxury that you decided to return in my son's lives." Alexander's mother's face turned red due to the furious rage she felt right now.

A tear flowed down in my cheek. I'm tired of my life. People judged the outer part of me. People disgusted me not knowing. They seen me as waste and trash.

"What are you talking about?" I asked with my tears flowing down.

"I'am talking about your garbage life
How bitch you are and your golddigger ways." He said and grabbed the tiny of Pilo and stormed outside the penthouse.

"What's happening Alexander?" I asked her in frustration.

"I don't know what's happening!" I cried on the floor.

"It was the first time I have seen their faces but when they slag me like we knew each other" I watched him with my eyes swollen.

"Come on just sleep." Alexander helped me get up but I don't want yet.

"What have I done to you Alexander that made to your mother slag me not just of my promiscuous work but my entire personality?" I asked her with a tired and raspy voice.

"Am I a bad person in the past Alexander?" The last question I asked that made me Alexander frozen. I can see that his eyes was filled lividness.

"I can't answer that Stella." He coldly declared. He can't stare my eyes back he was avoiding my stare. He stormed out of the room. I was left staring in everywhere with nothingness in my mind.

I was avoiding to tell what happened in the past. The only people who knew what happened to me was Dr. Galicia, Kuya Tino and Ate Lita. I was shunning the topic if somebody dared to open the topic about what happened to me. It was for my safety to avoid person will took advantage of my situation.

If somebody will ask a question. I will tell the truth but half of the truth. I weaseled in telling them that I had a selective amnesia and colon cancer. Aside for my safety was to avoid being pitied by stranger. I was tired of being pitied. I want to stand up but I can't a lot of travails stopping me to stand.

I was thinking about my life. I was losing hope to feel that I have a purpose. My life was getting hideous as the time flies. I loathed my life totally. My life was slowly detoriarating. Getting pale everyday until it was colorless. A useless life.

I hoped I die now.

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