Taehyung's pov
"Taehyung......she's pregnant."
My whole world stops. I feel as if I can't breathe, my lungs trying to grasp onto air that is not there. My head seems to spin in dizzying circles as I watch Rain's back, taking in her stiff shoulders and her clenched hands.
The thing is; I'm happy about her being pregnant. I really am, and it surprises me. My heart flutters in my chest as I think about it, a smile tugging at the corner of my lips. I have only thought about having children once, and it was when I was with Rain. I had imagined moving in together, starting a family, watching them grow up, and then getting old together.
That can't happen though. I lose my smile as I think about Ami, and what I had already promised her. I can't go back on what I already promised her. I can't go back on the promise I made to both of our parents either.
"I can't do this."
The words leave my mouth before I can even think about stopping them. As soon as I say them though, I want to take them back. The pain I felt from saying those words was almost tangible. I could almost physically feel my heart breaking, a tremor running up my spine.
"What do you mean 'I can't do this'?" Jimin asks, stepping forward menacingly. The rage and anger in his voice frightens me, me never seeing him so livid before. His entire face is red, his muscles bulging intimidatingly as he gets in my face. I had never thought that I would get so scared of someone shorter than me before, but Jimin looks like he wants to kill me.
"Its ok Jimin, I'll be fine."
My eyes move on their own to find Rain, not missing the emotion clogging her throat as she speaks. Her voice had been so soft and so broken that it made me want to cry as well, it as if she had already given up. Her back is still facing me, her whole body entirely still as she stands there.
Despite her saying that she would be fine, I can't seem to shake how defeated she sounded. Will she really be ok? I know that she has Hoseok to take care of her right now, but what if he leaves her? What would happen to her if something happened between them?
And how would I be able to live with myself? How would I be able to live my life knowing that I have a son or a daughter out there who probably won't even know what I look like? How can I live without knowing what they look like? Without knowing if they have my nose and her eyes, or her smile and my personality.
I can't do that to her. I can't do that to myself. I can't do that to our unborn child. I got Rain pregnant. Yes, that may have been an accident, but this child most certainly will not be treated as one. I know that I wouldn't want to grow up without a father, and I won't let this child do that either.
"Wait, Rain."
I step around Jimin to get to where Rain is still standing, gently grabbing her arm and turning her around. My eyes widen when I see the silent tears tracking her cheeks, my heart softening at the sight. It is probably wrong of me to say this, but Rain has got to be the only person I know that actually looks pretty when she cries. Her nose is slightly red as she avoids my gaze, my hand brushing against her soft cheeks to try and clear away her tears.
"I want to raise this child with you" I say quietly, watching as she looks up in shock. She sniffles before blinking to clear her eyes, surprise still showing clearly on her face.
"R-really?"
I nod, biting my lip in contemplation. There is only one thing that has to be done.
"I want to raise this child with you like a real father should..............................We just can't let Ami find out."
