The Gangleader Helped Me Become Sober (BxB)

Part 10

*Daniel's POV*

...let me help you, " I say as softly but fiercely as I can.

He sinks to the floor and shoved his head in his hand and I can see tears welling up in his eyes. I sit down next to him.

"It wasn't supposed to be this way. My dad started abusing us and drinking when Braun was born. It was really bad. This went on until two years agowhen Braun turned 7, he killed him. Right in front of us-Damon, my mom and I.

"She told me to run but I wouldn't listen. He held a gun up to my head and my god was I ready for it to end. The cops came just in time. He's in jail for life and used to have flashbacks. They stopped for a while but recently they started up again so I started taking drugs to try to make myself feel better. It works Daniel and I can't give them up but now Damon knows and you know and everything is going wrong. I can't even change in front of someone because of the scars that litter my body. Only you and my family knows about the abuse and only you and Damon know about the drugs, " he sobs.

I feel my heart breaking for the broken 17-year-old beside me. Yes, I asked around for his age. I'm only a year older than him. I grab Jai's hands and pull him up so he's standing in front of me. I wipe his tears away with the pads of my fingers and kiss his cheek lightly. I can see the confusion cross his face. I slip my hand under his shirt and lift it over his head.

"Daniel what are you doing. I'm not gay," He says, the last part of his sentence bothers me but I choose to ignore it. This is for him I tell myself.

"Shhh. It's okay. Please just trust me," to my delight, Jai just nods his head.

I let my eyes skim over his bare torso and the sight almost brings tears to my eyes. There are raised scars from what seen to be from various weapons littering his body. I touch them gently, making sure to go slow. When it seems like Jai is okay I wrap my arms around him and hug him with everything I have.

When I feel his arms wrap around me too I bury my head into his neck and lay a soft kiss where his shoulder meets his neck. I feel the shivers go down his spine but he doesn't try to get away so I keep going. I lay several more light kisses on his shoulder and neck, going slowly to make sure I won't scare him. Then I plant a slow kiss on his lips and to my surprise, he kisses back. Not being able to help myself, I deepen the kiss. When I skim my tongue against his bottom lip he pulls back and starts to hyperventilate. Shit shit shit, I think to myself.

"Hey, I'm sorry. Im so sorry. It's okay, I shouldn't have done that, Jai," I try to comfort him as I sit him on my bed.

"I can't do this. I'm straight. I'm straight. I'm straight," he chants to himself.

"Listen to me," I say sternly and when his eyes meet mine I start to speak again.

"Are you homophobic?" He shakes his head 'no'.

"Do you hate me?" Again he shakes his head.

"Did it feel good?" he blushes and looks down so I take that as a silent yes. I get on my knees in front of him and put my hands on his thighs as I speak.

"Then what's wrong with kissing me, no one's going to judge you, there's nothing wrong with being gay or bi and I really like you. I know we don't really know each other but that doesn't matter. We can get to know each other and I'll be really careful and play by your rules."

When he seems to be okay again, I lean forward and kiss him softly. When he makes no move to stop me I lean him back and deepen the kiss again. I let my hands skim his soft skin gently, leaving goosebumps on his beautiful skin.

"Are you okay?" I ask not wanting to push him too far. When he nods I put a little bit of my body weight on him and continue to kiss him.

"Jai do you want me to stop?" I ask as I break the kiss to get air.

"Not yet" he replies breathlessly

So, I continue to kiss him and I put a little bit more pressure this time. It feels amazing. I wish I could do this every day. Jai is so much more than a hookup and I don't want him to be a hookup. This excites but kind of scares me at the same time. It makes me feel happy and tingly and like every good emotion I've ever felt balled into one. Against myself, I pull back, not wanting to go faster than we already were or push him to far.

"What are you thinking?" I ask him a little worried when he doesn't say anything.

"I'm thinking that a guy named Daniel, who I just met, turned me gay," he states.

"I didn't turn you gay Jai. You were always gay or bi, you're just now realizing it. And let's change that. Tell me all about you and I'll tell you all about me."

We did just that. I learned that his full name is Jaidon Rain Meyes and his brother's full name is Damon Storm Meyes. I thought that was kind of cool. I learned that he sometimes secretly loves affection and I learned some deeper stuff like he's never been to his brother Braun Skye Meyes's grave and he doesn't believe in the afterlife.

I told Jai about me, too. Now he knows that my full name is Daniel Reed Black, I am an only child, I don't believe in the afterlife either, and I secretly want a cat, and I love every one of my gang members, and my parents were killed in a gang war when I was sixteen. I told him how I had to take over the gang when they passed and my aunt had to come stay with me until I turned eighteen a few weeks ago. I told him everything I could. About me, the gang, my family.

Eventually, it was time for him to go home, having almost skipped school entirely. So, I offered to take him home and when we arrived to his house, I didn't want to say goodbye but I told him I would see him tomorrow at school. We agreed that we would talk to his friends tomorrow so it wouldn't be weird if I actually showed up at school and decided to hang out with him and his group. While I have seen them, I was in the grade above so it usually separates us, but I could still try.

"Alright, I better go. I have to talk to Damon about the gay thing I guess."

"Okay. Call me if you want to talk or if you need anything. I mean it," I say as I put my number into his phone and hand it back. Before he could get out I grab his arm and pull him closer. I kiss the tip of his nose and let him go. He grins and jumps out of the car, walking into his house.