Silence // (Lashton)

chapter eleven

"Silence"

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Ashton POV

The darkness is filling me up all over again and it's not fair.

Believing something you now thought twice is now not making any miracles. When will this thing end? I've learnt that things that wanted in life don't always come out the way you wanted, and the only way it can is finding those clues. Well how will I ever find those clues with my eyes filling up with the color black.

What would mama is saying or my little sister and brother? I haven't seen them since my accident.

It's a year I'm guessing. What about Luke? What's going with Luke? He hardly touches me like before. The only times he touches me is if I need to eat or go potty.

I'm guess I'm being unexisted

So hard to pretend everything is okay when I'm not okay I'm different and ugly now with these things I have now in my system.

Maybe if I secretly choke myself no one will have a problem with me, I'm sure Luke is tired of seen me like this, a reason who will leave me.

I just wanted to marry him and have a family with him and die together.. Just like the fairy tales..

That's all I wanted and thought about it when I was growing up. I'm guessing I'm not getting that anymore..

It's not far to me.
I want another chance
Surely people gets a second chances

Right?

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(A/N): sorry it's short. Been busy.

Fact: people who left 1D for 5SOS are dumb. In fact, I still listen to the first album "Up All Night" & still listen to "WMYB" & yet they call me a carrot? Carrot was so 2011 sweetheart. Drop it.

I listen to both bands. Anyway, this whole "5 Sauce" is ridiculous but if the boys pronounce it that way then it's cool it's their band. But that doesn't gives anyone to call people stupid for calling it "5 es oh es" LET THEM! I call it "5 es oh es" for 5SOS even if the band is officially called 5 Seconds of Summer. It doesn't matter how you call it it's just letters and numbers between each other gosh you don't have to call people stupid for not calling it 5 sauce because it's also stupid if you say it that way in my opinion. I'm allow to give my opinions out.

Thanks

- Johnny x