Shawn looked at me obviously surprised by my question. "Uh no" he replied. "Why?" He asked. "I was just wondering" I replied. "Just wondering?" He asked. "Seriously, Why?" He added. "It's just I was thinking about it and-." I decided to sit up. "Have you thought about having sex with me?" I asked bluntly. Shawn looked at, still surprised. "Well yeah I have I suppose" he answered. "Cool" I said not sure how to reply. "I mean we aren't going to have sex yet" I said standing up. "No" Shawn said. "Because we can control our hormones" I said. "Of course" Shawn said. "Good" I said. Me and Shawn looked at each other. "You should go" I said. "Yeah" Shawn said as he got up.
All night I was thinking about our conversation, Jesus.
The next day arrived and we both sat on my bed with the light shining in my room and over the bed that me and Shawn sat on.
"There's this song that I really like" I said as I got up and put the song "count me in" on my early winters on. (I couldn't find the audio but I fount this video and the song playing is the song in this scene, with me so far?Song above) "I've heard this one" Shawn said as he got up and walked over to me. He placed his hands on my waist and placed his head on my shoulder, even if I am shorter. I smiled as i closed my eyes and took the moment in, Shawns breath on my neck and a beautiful song playing with the sun pouring into my room. I felt Shawn press his lips against my neck as he started to kiss it. I smiled as I turned around and placed my arms around his neck and started kissing his lips. It deepened and we made our way to my bed, this kiss still happening. Shawn turned us around so I was lying on the bed with him on top of me and his hands were at the bottom of my top as he went under and undone my bra. Butterflies exploded in my stomach with every touch of his on my skin, his touch was magic. He moved his hands further down, the pleasure he was giving me was overwhelming, with every movement of his hand, I felt so good, he made me feel good. We stopped kissing at moments and started laughing as there was a tiny bit of awkwardness in the air. I looked up at Shawn who was looking down at my lips and he smiled. "You're so god damn beautiful" Shawn said, that comment made me blush, he called me beautiful. When ever I look at him I see my one and only true love, the person I'm meant to be with. We kept kissing but we stopped to smile, I couldn't help it but smile. "You wanna do this?" He asked softly. "Yeah" I replied with a small laugh and he did too. Intimacy isn't just about sex it's also about trusting the other person and loving some one else, I love Shawn so much.
