I stood in the bathroom looking at myself in the mirror. I can't believe that just happened! I can't believe me and Shawn just did that. Me and Shawn just had sex! He took my virginity. We've only been dating for a few weeks! Jesus. It's okay, just keep your cool, it's alright, I thought as I opened the door and walked into my room. Shawn was sitting on my bed with his shirt off and his jeans on. "Hey" He said. I smiled back not knowing what to say to him. "Are you okay?" He asked. "I'm alright" I said. "Look I know it didn't, go right or I think it didn't-"
"No it didn't go right at all, I didn't feel anything" I replied. "Well I'm sorry! That's not my fault" he replied. "So it's mine?" I asked. "I didn't say that" Shawn said. "I can tell you think that" I said quietly. Shawn looked at me and I could tell that he blamed it all on me. There was an awkward silence between us, I honestly don't know what to say to him. I can't believe he thinks is all my fault. I walked over to my bed and started striping it. I looked over at Shawn and he looked up from his fingers and watched me. "Look, I didn't mean it in that way" Shawn said. "What? That's it's my fault that our first time was shit? What way did you mean he then?!" I asked slightly shouting. Shawn didn't reply he just looked at me and then back at the floor again. "You should go" I snapped. "Yeah I should" he said as he put his top on and left.
