I've been depressed for a long time
I have problems that no one should have
Nothing seems to excite my life anymore
Am I turning into a psychopath?
I am a complete waste of energy
Negativity is all that you'll hear from me
The emptiness has conquered my existence
I am regret and resentment
Life is completely unsatisfying
At times I'd rather be dying
Excitement's from a gorge
Brought up torn from two dummies
That fucked after a ride to the liquor store.
Forced to go to a supposedly
'splendid environment' for kids
Which turned me into someone who hides
And cries in the silence of darkness
Broken from words and society
Chains of insecurity fit me perfectly
Make sure they don't make a sound
'cause I'd be embarrassed from being noticed.
The chains would go home with me
And I'd throw them in the bin only to carry them around again the next day
Social anxiety makes me sweat and shake
Like a marathon runner running for his
life that shockingly..
means so much to them.
Depression becomes nothing but who I am
As I lie awake in my lonely bed
With no one to call or text
Not even my ex
I can't love someone if I don't love myself
Not even having wealth would cure my
Poor mental health
I try so desperately to find something new
to..
Make me feel full of joy
Perhaps buying something I've always
Wanted, only the feeling doesn't last long
I'm soon on the road to being hopeless
In a sad, lonesome world
Where no one understands the emptiness
Of a cold, depressed, and introverted girl
I don't belong in this life filled with
Ignorant, robotic people who are
Effortlessly emotionless
Plugged into an artificial life
...I wish I could restart my life,
A new beginning perhaps
Where God wasn't such a pain in the ass
To me.
The feeling is the worst when you realize
There's no one there to help
I am all alone in this and
You're just a fucking therapist.
YOU ARE READING
Twisted
ŞiirThis is just an emotional outlet for me. P.S. I think I might be bipolar. It is completed until I feel like writing another poem, which I might tomorrow. Please, don't steal any of my work. Thank you **Images are taken from the internet. I do not o...
