Growing pains | a hannie fan fiction |

twentyseven

☞ quote of the day ☜

We cannot become
What we need to be
By remaining what we are.

- unknown

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" just growing pains. "

✎ Ⓐ n n i e l e b l a n c ✐

My heart raced seeing alcohol.

I feel like a living emotional breakdown.

My palms got sweaty, from seeing a young man take a sip of alcohol.

The sound of the Can hitting the table felt like I had been impaled in some sort of way.

The smell of it made me unstable from consistently stinging memories.

My fathers voice came into the back of my head, quietly at first then echoing louder and louder by the second.

"Your such a bitch."

"Just Go to bed."

"I don't care about you."

"Shut up!"

And many more, consisting more proactive language.

His voice and my mother's began coursing through my ears, I had to excuse myself.

I walked down the hall as my eyes watered, not even crying.

Just as I felt so empty, so so empty.

I laid back on the couch with a small blanket thrown over me, wiping the tears from my damp eyes.

Flashbacks began as I tried to ignore them, looking out at the sunset.

Blurry and disoriented from my tears.

"Ans?" A voice called.

I didn't bother answering, I knew it was most likely to be Hayley.

I heard her footsteps inch closer to me.

"It's the alcohol," she said resting her plan on my shoulder "isn't it?"

I nodded slowly.

She sat on the cushion next to me, gently wiping the wet tears from my eyes.

Hayley turned around to the door way, making some sort of a signal with her hands.

I didn't care enough to look, I kept my eyes on the sunset.

footsteps echoed off the walls and I didn't even flinch, from my mental wall I had put up.

"Ans am I okay to come in?" He said in a unsure voice as he stopped, on edge for my reply.

I nodded my head out of respect, and gut feeling that I could trust him.

He deserves to know.

He walked into the area where me and Hayley sat, as he sat in a chair next to us.

"Can we talk," Hayley started as I looked over at her.

"About our parents." She finished nerves in her voice.

I took a deep breath in, talking about my parents was never easy.

Considering it brings back some of the worst memories and parts of my life.

I nodded, squinting my eyes from trying not to tear up.

I looked at Hayden with a puzzled look on his face.