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chapter four

Alesha

I got out of the shower and I lowered the volume of my music. I dried off quickly and wrapped the towel underneath my armpits. I took my phone into my bedroom and I laughed when I saw the text from Amanda saying that her friend wanted to be set up on a blind date with David because her friend was having a hard time finding his type of man, or in Amanda's words, his type of cock. We had been going back and forth most of the morning so far, talking about setting our two best friends up with each other on a date. I replied to the text quickly and I set my phone into my bed.

I got out a pair of light wash, ripped shorts that I barely wore and a white shirt. I got dressed in the items and then changed my mind about the shirt, switching it out for a a floral shirt that I didn't have to wear a bra with. My breasts were small so I could get away without wearing a bra most of the time, which I tended to but some outfits I had to wear a bra with.

I changed my shorts as well, putting on a darker wash pair that only had small rips in the pockets. I tried to dress appropriate for being a mother but I was also struggling to stay true to my age and what I liked. The floral shirt I was wearing was one that I had breastfed Azura in as I only had to lower the neck of it. The shirt was strapless and the sleeves were tight against my arms.

I knew that I looked good in my outfit because I felt good wearing it. I put on makeup quickly, trying my best not to mess the eyeliner up. Normally I didn't put on makeup as it was Saturday but I was going to meet Amanda for coffee at a café that was near both of our apartments.

I had gotten David to watch Azura for me and she had gone to his house for the morning until I was going to pick her up after saying goodbye to Amanda. Maybe I would even bring Amanda home with me and we would hang out all day together, almost like a date.

I wanted to get back together with Amanda and start our relationship back up. I had missed Amanda so much after we had broken off our friendship and she cut off all contact between us except on Facebook, which is how I had learned she had gotten pregnant shortly after we had broken up. I had been too afraid to tell Amanda that we were girlfriends when we had broken up and that had ruined our friendship. I wanted to get that friendship back on track to where it had been.

I didn't ever want to use Amanda for sex again because I knew I had loved her when we were eighteen. I had just been to afraid to say it to her when she had asked us what we were six years ago. Today I wanted to ask Amanda to be my girlfriend officially as I never did back then in uni when I should have.

If I had said that we were girlfriends, we might've gotten back together sooner and we could have been a young, married couple by now if I hadn't fucked it all up. We could have been trying for our first child together by now if we had gotten married after dating again if I had only told Amanda she was my girlfriend back then. I regretted what I had said that one night in my dorm room and I wanted to tell Amanda that.

David already knew that I regretted what I had said to Amanda all those years ago and he had been encouraging me for the past couple of days to tell Amanda how I felt about her when we met for coffee. I was determined to do that now and I was praying that Amanda felt the same way about me still.

The song changed on my phone again, going to Ed Sheeran and I hummed along to the track. It had been released recently as a single and I had bought it because it reminded me of when Amanda and I had danced together at her parents' house under the moonlight with the grass tickling our bare feet. That was my favourite memory of my relationship with Amanda but it always had made me sad whenever I thought about it because shortly after we had broken up. I loved the song nonetheless because of what it meant to me and I was debating now about getting a tattoo with some of the lyrics on it on my ankle in an anklet.

"Baby, I'm dancing in the dark, with you between my arms
Barefoot on the grass, listening to our favorite song
I have faith in what I see
Now I know I have met an angel in person
And she looks perfect
I don't deserve this
You look perfect tonight," I sang out as I grabbed my phone, stopping the music, leaving my apartment, and locked the door behind me.

I was still humming the song as I walked down the stairs of my apartment building and going onto the sidewalk. The chorus meant the most to me and part of it was going to be the tattoo that I wanted. I started humming the song over as I walked to the café, passing by my favourite record and music shop that I had gotten a job at uni in.

I stopped humming when I got to the café and I went inside. I ordered a coffee and a muffin for myself and I went outside to look for Amanda. I sat down and she was just nearing the table that I was sitting at.

"Hi," I said.

"Hi," she replied.

[] hey guys! They're finally going on the date to the café! Do you think Alesha is going to go through with asking Amanda to be her girlfriend? What do you think is going to happen next and what did you love about this chapter? Bye until the next chapter!